I am grateful for the willingness to stay focused on my Abraham Workshop exercises. Today I will add the third ‘want’ to my list dealing with this problem I have had with me living a life that predominately acted like I was separated from God up to the age 50 at least when at last I became aware of a Loving God.
My first page is people orientated, the second is on weight, and this third one is going each day with course lesson 79, “Let me recognize the problem so it can be solved.”
1. Abe suggests that I write a ‘want’ at the top of each page.
2. Then state all the reasons that I can list for wanting this.
3. Next state all the reasons why I believe I’ll have this.
And that I need set forth all the things I’ll expect and will keep expecting that I have this change in my perception, and it is so!
I am grateful to Abraham’s revelations on the Law of Attractions. This law is not new to me. 35 years ago I was given a little tiny book, “As A Man Thinketh.” This book set my mind into motion placing most of my thoughts into positiveness.
Another example was the story of Job regarding, “What Job feared most came upon him.” And it did…But somehow Job turned this around because he too was aware of positive thoughts. Job somehow knew that he was not separated from God and thrived his whole ordeal on “Faith,” or a change in his perception. I tend to see Job’s miracles were due to a change in his thinking during all of those disasters and that his fears had been brought on by himself. The bible says it was due to faith, but to me, faith is too laid back…requiring no actions. I tend to think it was his awareness that he had to see these events differently…and he did.
I am grateful for Dr. Loring Swaim, who in 1962 wrote a book, “Arthritis, Medicine, and the Spiritual Laws.” He stated it was the mind that took in fearing what it saw when one observed a relative or someone with crippling arthritis…setting into motion a fear of themselves having this dis ease. Dr. Swaim maintained in this book that since one’s fears were brought on by negative fearful thoughts, imagining "that for the grace of god that could be/will be ‘me’…all crippled up…just waiting for this to happen?" He maintained that the mind could just as easily change this back into a healthy person’s thinking. The course would say: “This is a change in perception”…the miracle.
Dr Swaim also maintained that many people who have brought this dis ease upon them selves, ie., such as Job, who had brought on his own disasters by his own fearfulness. That they now see this as their life style and would be unwilling to take on any responsibility in acquiring this dis ease. Instead they would find many reasons and grow very secure in mind-sets of misery, self-pity, and would not be desirous to turn arthritis around for themselves to become arthritic free. Such as Job was responsible for changing his disasters by changing his perceptions. Again, the miracle!
Me? I see maintaining my negative thinking as “a separation from God.” And you know me, “There’s got to be a better way…”
I am grateful to have opened ACIM to lesson 79 and to realize once again that my only problem (feeling of separation) has been solved when I become aware that God Himself would never exclude me…so therefore, why have I sought separation as a negative way of living?
This separation from God is not for me, nor Abe, nor Job, nor Jesus, nor Dr. Swaim, and it is up to me to change any negative thoughts that brought on the 2 reasons for me to go into my Workshop. There I will go each day to set up the necessary discipline to get a so-called problem solved.
If I know me, I’ll end up knowing that it was me, {{{{{lil ole rellalou, who still did not love herself enough yet. And she defocused her own stuff on others and her weight, whereby, lil ole rellalou could remain defocused off of loving her Higher Self and defocused off of recognizing that she had never been separated from God. In the meantime, as rellalou learned about compassion, she could afford to allow herself to go back to the Workshops and own how her own negative thoughts were hers...hers alone...and to change them as she pushed them out with compassion.}}}}}
Oh, ego, you do good work in keeping my vertical goals diverted. Now I wonder if I’d write my gratitude page nearly every day, and stay focused on what I attempt to focus on if this cyberfamily was not in my celestial space called my mind…known here as cybercountry, or cyberterritory?
I see my Abe exercise pages as laid out by Abe and ACIM, merely as miracles. (A step in discipline for me.) That it was my thinking that put me into fear. I had grown used to maintaining distancing, poor me’itis, dis ease, addictions, etc. And it will be my positive disciplined actions that will turn me around…OBTW, am I ever grateful that I have studied “Compassion” thereby becoming ever so gentle with me, as I daily continue to align vertically with this cyberfamily seeking Universal Love …rell
Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 7:00 AM from IP address 207.230.48.142
