Wed Grats...WB lesson 231"Father, I will but to remember you."
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I am grateful as always for our patty…even as healthy as I am, I’d just love for her to be my caretaker and love me like she loves those “Clients.” I love how their capital “C” places them in relation to the Truth that they’ve been born to be…and she knows it and shares it. Yes, this is beauty and love in its purest form.
I am grateful for any insight that I have to life in general and how I am willing to “go for it!”
I am grateful to be corresponding by e-m with a niece who is dealing with hubby’s terminal pancreatic cancer. I often wondered how she had ever made it/survived? Her father is the one sib that our mother seemed to excessively mother. She tended to pity him…he was fat/pudgy, ugly/homely, and a lazy conniving manipulating annoying sib. The rest of us agreed that we were very lucky not to be loved like him.
He married Vera, a rather passive and pregnant lovely young woman. Ellie was a beautiful black eyed baby girl. Somehow she survived it all. About 7 years later a son was born…he was designated to be Vera’s own little boy. And history/herstory repeated itself. The story changed when 7 years later another child was born and this baby became my sib’s own son to raise. Both the parents and the sons were ever at odds. ITMt, no one ever raised Ellie.
These e-mails from Ellie are now revealing who raised and nurtured her…my Mom…
I am very grateful for this awareness. Even though, we felt like Mom flunked on smother loving “King” Rex, (Rex is real name) we were grateful for what we got from her nurturing, to say the least. The picture was, need I repeat the paint job? …’Twas the height of depression, 8 very young offspring to feed, school, and keep warm and healthy…and some how she and dad did it. {{{There must have been a Power Greater than them…}}} and I must have been willing to find it, too…LOL?
I am grateful to Ellie as she unravels her story to me…sorta like a second hand nurturance…?
Is it interesting that I go to this WB lesson 231? “Father, I will but to remember You.” Which says:
What can I seek for, Father, but Your Love? Perhaps I think I seek for something else; a something I have called by many names. Yet is Your Love the only thing I seek, or ever sought. For there is nothing else that I could ever really want to find. Let me remember You. What else could I desire but the truth about myself?
Jesus is telling us: “This is your will, my brothers. And you share this will with me, and with the One as well Who is our Father. To remember Him is Heaven. This we seek. And only this is what it will be given us to find.”
Me? All of this, patty, Ellie, Mom, “King” Rex…really makes me think about how the course tells us that we have always been loved by God, that we’ve never been separate from His Love, and somehow we somehow innately knew this and yearned for it…yeah, staying vertical…rell
Posted on Dec 3, 2003, 12:07 PM from IP address 207.230.48.210