I am grateful that I willing to invest in mircles!!!!!!!!
I am grateful this morning that my back yard has become God’s largest dining room for the birds. It seems as though there is food galore out there for them. This was a flock of sparrows and now a flock of starlings. It is a carpet of bird and it truly is: “that birds of a feather flock together.” I know the feeling. Gulf Shores is beckoning me again this year. And yes, that is one great big piece of the country where a flock of “Snow Birds” flock together for the winter months.
I look out and a beautiful single little red bird knows where he has it good and I am grateful…and now a blue jay!
I am grateful for my widowed friends whom I dine with on Friday. They went on to see the movie, “Samurai.” I could not bear to see another movie with any sort of struggle in it.
I saw my video, “Far From Heaven.” It did a good job of revealing a gay husband’s indifferences to a nieve-unsuspecting wife…and what they both were going through.
I have dealt with this more than once in my career with wives wanting to learn how to communicate whereby gay husbands will cease ignoring them…wanting only their love. Their Denial System is overwhelmingly resilient to even peek at the facts and/or vs their complaints. Yes, it is sad that this surfaces within any marriage, but it is not meant as a personal assault on the partners.
I wonder what I will open in ACIM? Answer:
W B lesson 46: “God is the love in which I forgive.”
“God does not forgive because He has never condemned.”
“And there must be condemnation before forgiveness is necessary. It is the great need of this world. As I condemn only myself, so do I forgive only myself.
Yet although God does not forgive, His Love is nevertheless the basis of forgiveness. Fear condemns and love forgives. Forgiveness thus undoes what fear has produced, returning the mind to the awareness of God.
God is the Love in which I forgive you, [rell].”
Me? My intact Denial System? I am grateful that God’s love is the basis for my forgiveness. Seems that I am making no headway with Hank, but I am me, as it is only me that I forgive. It is interesting to observe his resistance. Suppose Hank’s D S is protecting him from something? And what about me? Do I think that I have a need for as much protection?
I know that before pre-course, I knew nothing about loving me as God does. I know that to love me as God does has opened the doors for much more Compassion and it is this available Compassion that has softened my attitude towards the Hanks, the Marys, the etcs. This change in my perception is unmeasureable to my resistance to finally want to love me…without condemnation.
I’m grateful that I became willing to forgive my stuff that Hank was showing me. My denial system was in overload re: him/me?…regretfully so, but it is this change in my perception that is truly a miracle…rell
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