lesson #309 “I will not fear to look within today.”
Jesus is convincing me that:
Within me is eternal innocence, because it is God's Will that it be there forever and forever. I, His Son, whose will is limitless as is His Own, can will no change in this. For to deny my Father's Will is to deny my own. To look within is but to find my will as God created it, and as it is. I fear to look within because I think I made another will that is not true, and made it real. Yet it has no effects. Within me is the Holiness of God. Within me is the memory of Him.
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As this idea of God’s named rell, born with eternal innocence,
Born with the Will of God whether I want it or not,
Born with the holiness of God that is within me,
Now I ask me, “With all of this within me,
Am I supposed to be acting a whole lot differently than I am?
Or, am I doing it already and I do not know it?
Or, just what is going on
And if there is nothing going on when will it happen?
Do I still fear being what I was born to be?
Jesus did be what he was born to be
And I don’t want to go that route even if I have and am eternal innocence.
So what do I fear?
I wouldn’t have fear if I’d tap into my eternal innocence.
What do I want?
Would I be thinking any of these thoughts
Can I accept that I’ve never been separated from God?
As never having been separated, there would be no fear, no lack,
No Will but God’s…nothing but the Love of God?
What keeps me here, that is, if I am here?
If I’m not here, why don’t I know it?
Are all of these thoughts based on the ego’s Belief System?
The ego’s BS?
Or on rell’s BS?
What am I waiting for?
Am I waiting at all?
Am I readier than I know about?
And Jesus continues to pray”
“The step I take today, my Father, is my sure release from idle dreams of sin. Your altar stands serene and undefiled. It is the holy altar to my Self, and there I find my true Identity…amen.”
In my holy alter to my HigherSelf I will seek and find all the answers to all my questions above…thanks dear HolySpirit…amen*** …rell
Posted on Apr 12, 2005, 5:14 PM from IP address 24.217.189.221