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Thurs Grats. Knowing the Peace of God!

I am grateful for watching the movie “Antwone Fisher” last night. Our patty sure does mentions great movies. patty, I really enjoyed the many beautiful course messages in this one…no, not the pain and torturing that the characters went through.

I just had so much coffee warming my insides yesterday afternoon, that the movie got me right into the sleep mode and there I stayed ‘til morn. This was a movie that I did not takes recesses with. It went on and stayed on. I am grateful that I stayed with it.

I am grateful for today’s client becoming aware of how his need to justify and alibi were what maintained his worth to him. He is understanding how he could even con himself into believing he was right…his worth depended on it, and without his worth, he thought that he was the nothing like what he learned that he was from his “thems.” I told him about Antwone and that he too, recovered from such deprivations of beliefs about himself imposed in the treatments of “them and caretakers.” His core Belief was that he was a good person…and that is the Belief of client. It is fascinating to observe his weekly awareness of his recovery. Up until this client, I’ve never seen any one recover from the addiction to “Always Right.”

I am grateful to be going down to DeSoto to be with friends, and on the way back to visit with daughter in Hillsboro and pick up some art work of Grand Daughter who is loaning it to me so I can brag on it. I will take pictures of one piece that is so outstanding to me, I’ll see if I can get patty to post it here for me.

I opened ACIM to lesson 200…”There is no peace except the peace of God.”

I need to seek no further. I will not find peace except the peace of God. I need to accept this fact, and save myself the agony of yet more bitter disappointments, bleak despair, and sense of icy hopelessness and doubt. I need seek you no further. There is nothing else for me to find except the peace of God, unless I seek for misery and pain.

Jesus is telling me, rell: “That this is the final point to which each one must come at last, to lay aside all hope of finding happiness where there is none; of being saved by what can only hurt; of making peace of chaos, joy of pain, and Heaven out of hell. Jesus is saying, attempt no more to win through losing, or to die to live. rell cannot but be asking for defeat.

Jesus continues: Yet, she can ask as easily for love, for happiness, and for eternal life in peace that has no ending. He reiterates: “Ask for this, and rell can only win. To ask for what she has already rell must succeed. To ask that what is false be true can only fail.”

Jesus is asking rell to forgive herself for her vain imaginings, and seek no longer for what she cannot find. For what could be more foolish than to seek and seek and seek again for hell, when rell has but to look with open eyes to find that Heaven lies before her, through a door that opens easily to welcome her? Come home.”

Me? my favorite line in this lesson is: “To ask for what I have already must succeed.” Yeah, there may indeed be enough ego influence and ego involvement in my BS, (belief system) that I may never know what I already know.

But I’ll always remember Sojourner Truth’s answer to the question regarding her long life’s work and struggle for freedom for her race. When some one, before her death asked her, “Sojourner, suppose there is no Heaven, what if you didn’t get there, what would you say?”

Sojourner replied, “Bless the Lord, I sure had a good time thinking I would.”

And this too, is my goal of aligning each day with the Peace of God…rell

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Wed Gratitude...via Compassion, Love and Harmony...

So thirty days hath September…so, I am grateful…I do not like September.

I am grateful that I can not, nor will not complain about leading a dull life. Yesterday 32 of our bunch went down on "The Hill" and played Bocce Ball. I was on the winning team. It was different and fun, no I will not seek to do this again unless sought such as today!

I am grateful to not complain about the weather. Realizing that man did not make first wind blow, I just can not see berating God. We were under roofs today…as the rain barely sprinkled. All we did was have fun and eat lots of Italian food.

I am grateful that I’ve learned about Gratitude. I wonder what I did before? Be intolerant? ungracious? ignorant? or did I just get by?

I am grateful to be able to be around many people who are widowed and are at many different stages of loss. I am aware that there were many losses in my early life…my writings of gratitude on this daily basis seems to have showered my so called strengths with appreciation. I am grateful that at an early age I became aware that there could be a better way than just enduring losses. Instead, to move on through it with courage and bravery, knowing there had to be a Power Greater than me who would be with me at each turn. Seems there still is.

I am grateful for Holy Spirit, my paraclete, who is always with me, that undoes the consequences of any of the guilts that I ask to be undone. And is there to slow down my mind when I’ve misplaced items, some still unfound. And I grin each time some lost item turns up and I look up and say, “Thank you Holy Spirit, and on this one I didn’t even ask.” This just tickles me so deeply and lovingly.

I am grateful for my willingness to grieve even today. I find myself sad lately, but I start remembering when and how some sadness issue prevailed, and how it was overcome with Holy Spirit Intervention for what is True and Good for me…seems I can count on this and the sadness runs it’s gamut back to Freedom! I have a dear friend who always says, “I want my whining time..” when he is saddened or put upon by something…regardless of the issues.

{{{Dr. Hawkins on Grieving, “Power vs Force,” claims major losses in early life make one later vulnerable to passive acceptance of grief and sadness as though sorrow were the price of life. In Grief one sees sadness everywhere: the sadness of little children, the sadness of world conditions, the sadness of life itself. This level of Human Consciousness colors one’s entire vision of existence. Part of the syndrome of loss is the notion of the irreplaceability of what is lost or that which it symbolized. There is a generalization from the particular, so that the loss of a loved one is equated with the loss of love itself. At this level, such emotional losses may trigger a serious depression or death.}}}

Me? yes, I see this often amid the many widowed people that are my friends, and Compassion lets me feel with them and know that there is a timing and a continuity for when each will see the light of their day is near or ahead! Such as I, this one, rell, who knows love and harmony are both here and ahead!

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Tues grats: Decisions to forget... or to be safe? Was it an option?

I am grateful for another luncheon with the wonderful women. We meet to eat and be friendly at our local Olive Garden on the last Monday of a month. This is the 2nd time they have come to my home for a movie instead of going to the local movie house. I had “American Quilt,” and had seen it enough to guide them through it as to who had been who and who is still who now. It is like trying to piece a quilt together to keep up with the players. I also offered them “Joshua” which needed no explaining. They chose “Quilt.” Both are excellent movies.

I am grateful to be included with a bunch of women from this same bunch that is going to Branson in October. This will be lots of fun.

I am grateful to be going down on “The Hill…” (an Italian close knit neighborhood) this morning and getting to play Bocce ball. It will be like reminiscing, as I used to have a little shotgun house down there right where we will be going.

I am grateful that I can remember so many good things that have been part of my life. I like being on a “good remembering” roll…it is really hard to feel self-pity when on a roll.

I am grateful to open ACIM to “The Decision To Forget.”

{{{To remember is merely to restore to your mind to what is already there. You do not make what you remember; you merely accept again what is already there, but was rejected.}}}

Me? This path of Higher Consciousness requires me both to remember and to forget. I am to forget any message that does not lead me to inner peace. And, yes, I want my mind restored to what is already there…and I will as I continue aligning with this Universal harmony and love…rell

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Tuesday's Afternoon Gratitude..........

Today I am grateful miracles are natural.

Today I am grateful we live in a world of try for what we want and take what we get.

Today I am grateful we are all sparkling lights within a Light.

Today I am grateful we have movies that take us to different places.

Today I am grateful that tomorrow I will have a chance to see my daughter and grandchildren after I have my car serviced.

Today I am grateful for the new member of our family, a tei leaf whose name is leave.......... the tei leaf told me that all nature volunteers to die:o) now when an ant crawls up to me...... I say so you are volunteering...... yikes:o) I am blessed.

Today I am grateful when my Client shared that one day runs in the other......... I said not to worry that is space consciousness. We all want to go there. Then I showed her the reason we have calendars...... we can keep tract when we change the hearing aid batteries or have attended her roommates.... the plants. She was the Client who told me the story of the plant going to the therapist because their caregiver was talking to it.

Today I am grateful for my nature spirits and this break before I go out again............ and a Cyberfamily to keep me aligned looking up, love patty

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Monday Grats...Self-Compassion for me.

I am not grateful that I allowed myself to think that an “outside supposedly influences” were supposed to be there to manage my addictions. No, I am not grateful. I’ve been re-reading my journalizing from 10 years past…some of these addictions are still with me. Am I still fooling myself as I go to my Abe workshops each day with expectations of success?

I am grateful for an electric mattress pad that I leave plugged in over the year, and when I got cold enough last night, I reached for the control and turned that wonderful sucker on for comfort in the coolness of night.

I am grateful for the silence in my life style. This silence seems to bring me in tune with Universal love.

I am grateful for ACIM and to be sticking with lesson #79 in my Abe workshop plus the other 2 “wants”…if and when I find all this is/was unnecessary, too, I’ll also meet this with Compassion. I am grateful for the awareness of and expressing of Compassion for others and for me. Perhaps this is like Julie Cameron’s, in "Artists Way," 3 page “morning pages”…when I wrote until something started to happen with my emotions in the last 1/3 of the 3rd page.

Me? I am grateful for this web.site and the expected hope and fulfillment as I join the world for the day’s events. For the “Nowness of living;” for the Holy Instants that let me know my mind is part of God’s; and that I silently feel God’s Presence prevailing that occur with my mind as I change a perception on this vertical path aligning with Universal love and harmony…rell

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Sunday Grats...colorful ray rainbow...

I am grateful for remaining diligent to my Abe workshops. The emotion that I keep feeling is of sadness. Abe recommends coming into theses workshops with happy feelings. That is not occurring. I do know that the flip side of honest sadness is happiness and joy!

I am grateful for a client who is making great breakthroughs in honesty, in that he had ways of conning even his own justifyings and alibings to feel so honest to himself. I always say, “A client only heals as far as the Therapist or Coach is healed.” Am I recently dealing with my own dishonesty? as cunningly and as conningly as client? If so, I am grateful for this. Goes to show me how powerfully strong my Denial System can be over my yearnings, wants and desires.

I am grateful for such a gorgeous looking day out there. Sun is topping off the trees in golden greenlike highlights.

I was grateful for the April showers late yesterday afternoon as I was driving. The sun was bright, the clouds in the distant looked like sprinkling shaped cans, sprinkling where ever those clouds chose. There were very dark clouds outlined in gold by the sun, and a one ended rainbow not in arc shape but a 45 degree angle ray extending from distant trees to infinite clouds in the far above sky…no arc at all. I’ve never seen a ray rainbow before. This just lets me know that perhaps there are many more things left for me to see.

I am grateful for an encouraging breeze. It will dry the remaining unmown grass and it makes my gorgeous windsock spread its tails in acrobatic dances. I love the way this too delights these celestial eyes this golden morning that are seeking Universal harmony.

I am grateful for this cyberspace and my cyberfamily keeping my mind aware of the graciousness of God…this seems keep to my mind abundantly focused on vertical alignment…through out each day…rell

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Sunday's Gratitude.......

Today I am grateful the thought of all cycles ending as there is always a larger cycle enclosing each one.

Today I am grateful for the dvd Confidence.

Today I am grateful for the dialogues with my Clients about movies. My one Client's husband is worried about the back lash of the new movie, Mel Gibson has made about Jesus. He shared Jesus was Jewish. I expressed I thought the whole point of crucifixion was about the resurrection. I shared how AA we each have a God who understands us, it is like each of us is tailor made by One tailor. He was sharing how the Jewish were the first to say there was One God. I said, "You mean we were all pagans:o)?"It was a nice conversation.

His wife had gone to emergency with her son (who is a doctor) for she had her teeth cleaned the day before and there was still some bleeding. She is taking a blood thinner for her high blood pressure. Her son said he should have taken her off it. They weren't able to go to Temple but most likely they can go today. The Client's husband said, "She is always happy to be with her son:o)"

Today I am grateful that my other Client who has early dementia and husband becomes short...... she say's "Men" when he turns to watching sports vs. talking to her. I went and pulled her out of her chair and asked her to show me her pictures from their trips. She looked very content when I left. I enjoy comforting the women. Their husbands are always grateful.

Today I am grateful be aware of space consciousness and keep letting go of object consciousness.

Today I am grateful for turning down work, to work on self........ of knowing it is always inside out, to find that vastness of inner space.

Today I am grateful for the analogy of telling my Client's wife it is like the people are not in the TV, just as we are not in our bodies as the world is inside of us.

Today I am grateful for a Cyberfamily to keep me aligned with looking up with nature as everything rises, love patty

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Sat. Grats...Gift wrapped Denial?

I am grateful for an all night rain...which was not man-made...or is it? part of the illusion?

I am grateful for Lipton caffeine free Peach tea. I‘ve had 2 cups of caffeine coffee and I’m not even up yet.

I am grateful for this web.site and seeing Nancy yesterday, who is such a viable woman dealing with work, family, not exactly commune living in her neat apartment and just each day living it to her hilt. She seems so vibrant when I wanna compare her comings and goings to mine. Don’t laugh---but I could just about settle back to doing no more than “feeling sorry for myself.” I try, but just doesn’t feel right enough to go there.

I am grateful for shopping with Grand Daughter today who knows the exact layout of each department in each store. Cassidy is a Queen at shopping! Sorta puts me to thinking of Marianne Williamson’s mother who said, “Marianne is studies ACIM like it was a menu.” Marianne’s mom, being Jewish, had no idea what was holding her daughter’s interest. The ACIM material did capture Marianne’s mind and motivated her success in many areas. Prior to ACIM, she had claimed nothing constructive to speak of. Nor had I…and I am also grateful for Marianne.

I am grateful for the 12-Steps which readied me for ACIM, Abraham, Fox, Tolle, Dass, Sanford, Kristamurti, and etc. When looking for a notebook to pen my progress on these Abe workshops, I picked up a notebook with daily entries from 1993. Interesting re-reading. Seems I have stayed stuck in some areas, loomed forward on others, and was already in tune with a few more.

One where I am still stuck is in my present Abe workshop this 2003. I am able to see where Denial and Actions were elusive even then and must have been tolerable enough to live with another 10 more years. Seems I am continually hiding the emotions in a gift wrapped Denial package on the bottom layer in a coffin style deep freezer…metaphor?

I am grateful for this recent trigger on how Denial can remain gift wrapped for 10 years. Seems in 1993 I went through some Motions but not E-Motions. Abraham and Fox say I have no power with my ideas/wants/desires without E-Motion.

Then I go back to lesson 46 again that tells me, “God does not forgive because He never condemns.”

Me? then, this year 2003, I will Honor myself with the since renewed Compassion that will not condemn me, but be with me, and then I will Honor both the regained Dignity and Integrity that will seek Resolution. Spell checked my choice of spelling: re soul ution! I am grateful for this vertical path aligning me with Universal love…rell

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Saturday's Gratitude..........

Today I am grateful we have a forgiving universe, this week twice I broke the rules with my job. I took a Client to the beach. I took a husband to see his wife at the rehab. We are not to drive the Clients in our car or drive their cars. Sometimes rules shout to be broken.

Today I am grateful to have a little extra time. I still have two Clients, but one I am going two hours early as they are going to Temple.

Today I am grateful in sharing with my one Client who I know is treated like she has early dementia, that she could go to college free as she is 85 and you just have to be 60, and she told me she wouldn't have as much fun as with day care. She attends an Adult Day Care. At first she wasn't happy there but now she has found her nich:o) She has made friends. She has a wonderful mind and makes a difference in my life.

Today I am grateful for the analogy of object consciousness is like; happiness and unhappiness are like to candles flickering in a darkroom, space consciousness is like opening the shutters where the light swarms in.

Today I am grateful when my Client asked; "When you cut your fingernail, and the end that falls off, don't you considered it dead." I said, "No, and Sweetie (her stuffed gorilla who comforts her) isn't she shaming, no respect the invisible that joins us all. Separation is an optical illusion" Dead is still part of object consciousness�) She is the Client I took to the beach. I know she will sea she is the whole sea, as she is the diver:o)

Today I am grateful for that invisible, space consciousness.

Today I am grateful for sleep, I love having to sleep.

Today I am grateful the awakening makes sleep possible.

Today I am grateful for a Cyberfamily who keeps me vertically aligned, love patty

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{{{patty}}}many thanks for this analogy this gorgeous morning

This LIGHT can swarm all it wants to...

{{{{{analogy of object consciousness is like; happiness and unhappiness are like to candles flickering in a darkroom, space consciousness is like opening the shutters where the light swarms in. }}}}}

Oh! How beautiful to visualize this light swarming in! My mind is moving on to golden honey bees, swarming their honey hive. rell

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TGIF Grats...lesson #264 again, thanks patty!

I am grateful for the time that I am in my Abe Workshops. Seems Abe maintains feeling/emotions are so important to come to the Workshop with. My feelings are mostly sad feeling, otherwise why would I come here with my wants. And the sadness wants to know why I didn’t do this workshop when I first heard of it, and my Higher Self me says, “Let go ego…rell is getting on with her compassionate nature,” and I smile…that when the student is ready, my Abe teacher was right there.

I am grateful for this long rain. And I am really grateful that I cut most of the grass yesterday.

I am grateful to be playing tennis this afternoon…a game that I enjoy so very much! After 10-S, I will go to our annual picnic in the park and will enjoy seeing and being with my peers.

I am grateful to have most of my turquoise desk in its new home. Like me here in this earthly home, we will go out together. I’m pretty sure this desk is much older than I. It is put together with pegs…me, I am merely a temporary physical body and an eternal spiritual essence.

I am grateful for the course’s teachings and taking me to lesson 264 this morning.

“I am surrounded by the Love of God” where Jesus has taught me to pray:

“Father, You stand before me and behind, beside me, in the place I see myself, and everywhere I go. You are in all the things I look upon, the sounds I hear, and every hand that reaches for my own. In You time disappears, and place becomes a meaningless belief. For what surrounds Your Son and keeps him safe is Love itself. There is no source but this, and nothing is that does not share its holiness; that stands beyond Your one creation, or without the Love which holds all things within itself. Father, Your Son is like Yourself. We come to You in Your Own Name today, to be at peace within Your everlasting Love.”

Me? most of my day I think about where God is and how I feel paracleted to Him via Holy Spirit that is undoing much guilt that I have held in my *Belief system.

*(myBS)

“Father, God, this Son rell, is like YourSelf,” whether I know it or live it, but the Goodness/Christness that is my Source because of You is always within me whether I know it or not. Each day keeps me vertically aligned with the knowing, feeling and being at any “now” moment of a Holy Instant…rell

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We are One:o) love

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Thursday Gratitudes of a "Spiritual Rebel!"

I am grateful today for this gorgeous day…seems so simple.

I am grateful for all the activities that I get myself into and see the ends in sight! My garage is clean and I hardly knew it was happening. I managed to keep poken’ and pitchen’ while I was in there painten’ the desk…like in between takes or in between thinking time or in between drying times. I stayed with the cleaning project and then decided I didn’t want a dirty car in my clean garage, so it is washed inside and out…I had 3 phone calls while washing away! Geeees! I was home and they got me! I don’t “cell” yet. But I am very grateful for my wonderful answering machine.

I am grateful some one sent me an article on AADD which I will print separately, but it sure fits me too a “T.” And since getting it, I have gone to the bank, ordered new checks, quit waiting on it to rain so the plants could get watered and quit waiting for the Irish car wash, so washed my car, turned on the irrigation system, and swept the front porch. I am done!

I am grateful for this healthy physical body, and for as healthy as my mental mind is…seems these going together gets a lot of stuff done.

I am grateful for this mind of mine that is part of God. I remember the first time I read that…I wanted to scream…”NO WAY!” This lesson is #35, “My mind is part of God’s, I am very holy.” I still marvel how Holy Spirit led me through this lesson. Just in the littlest tiniest increments of possibilities at a time…until I got it. I recall now that I was more than the tiniest bit willing...but I didn't know at that time what for...I just knew there had to be a better way...and I was going to find it.

In pgr 3 where Jesus says: “The idea for today presents a very different view of myself. By establishing my Source as God it establishes my identity, and it describes me as I must really be in truth.”

Me? I am very grateful to have come this far in spirit in my mind from where I once was in the environment that I thought that I wanted. And from where I wanted to protect myself from the other images that I had sorta accepted. A dear friend has called me a “Spiritual Rebel” from the day she met me. It is very freeing to be around such a wonderful peer. There is more than one of us with this wonderful cyberfamily who wants us to remain vertically aligned as we move through this earthly plane…rell

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Wed--"Humpday's gratitudes...sans God's condemnations...

I am grateful for my work schedule and how flexible it has become.

I am grateful for an upcoming 4-day trip to Branson, MO with 12 colorful people mostly women friends. Branson is a prime entertainment town for “has beens,” such as Andy Williams, Perry Como, Roy Clark, the late Lawrence Welk, plus many other entertainers of my day. It is touted as little Las Vegas. I really never had any great yen to go, but wouldn’t want to miss this event with all these peers.

Branson was a po dunk place not hardly on a map and the most that was said about it: was it had a cute charming lake, and the area was called “Lake Taneycomo” and wasn’t even eligible for a fast food chain in my day.

I am grateful for the super strides going on in recovery with one of my clients that I coach. He finally caught on to the dynamics of having an Abundance Fund, and appeared eager to get one started. I love his innocence…it took him lots of time (many months) to come around that it would not be a set of money that he would be spending nor saving for a rainy day…it is called an Abundance Fund. He liked the idea that when one finally and diligently started one…abundant areas would be opening up in many different ways, ways he’d never thought about... One that he came up with today was, that he needed to plan his day’s work much more diligently, as what he was wasting by not planning would have already increased this A Fund tremendously! This was a GREAT BIGGIE for him.

Now for those who do not know about “Abundance…” just turn a round and shake your buns from side to side in a dance…thus: A bun dance…go figure!

I am grateful for figuring out about abundance for me, as I’ve never lived from a point of “scarcity” (scare city) since.

The course tells us that God provides for each one of us abundantly…that it is already there for us to know about and waits for us until we figure it out. I am so grateful to know God is love and abundance is waiting at our doorsteps when we realize we/I have the worth to know and accept His love for us/me.

I still love and thrive on lesson 46, where it says, “God does not forgive, because He does not condemn.”

Me? God! I love this.

I would not be where I am today if I had any reason to think God would or could condemn me. As Marianne says in her book, “A Return To Love” that I condemn my own self better and more than anyone else possibly could, especially God, who does not condemn in the first place…and I really get tired of that feeling of condemnation.

That lesson has always been good for me to know God as a loving God…this keeps me vertically aligned, and lordy only knows…that is where I wanna be…rell

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Tuesday Grats...Miracles and Holy Instants!

I am grateful for such a gorgeous day…but so what, aren’t we all?

I am grateful for getting paint mixed to a desirous color of red for a so-called coffee table. I wanted an easy way out…via spray paint. But numerous trips to different stores and returning cans of undesirous color of spray paint, had left me quite discouraged…and definitely not easier way!

I desired a deep bricky burgandy red…I’d get home, spray on a bit and it’d be as pink and rosey as raspberries…and back it’d go…still have a can to return.

Is anyone else as doggedly bull headed as I am?

I was fearing that 8 cans of Teal-blue (turquoise) would not cover adequately all the surfaces that I was painting, so set out to buy more cans. I found out it was discontinued. There just were not enough people like me to continue this color…and the number was replaced by off white. I had ACE Hdw match it and I have such an abundance of turquoise paint now that I just might white wash my trees turquoise. Does any one remember white washing tree trunks?

I am wondering if this was a way of keeping us kids busy during the dull dog days of summer? Since TV, PC games, and JD, (juvenile delinquency)did not exist back then and now a days no one white washes trees any more.

I am grateful for the ACE Hdw store…the staff is the best. Their kindness helped put such an exciting ending on this project of mine, and when I get the film developed I’ll scan them to patty and all can share this project!

I am grateful that this is my last earthly home and I want it to look like rell was happy here; replicating my very essence here…if possible? I wonder what this creative mind will explore next to offer me continued contentment?

I am grateful for miracles in my life style…as I plod playfully through the day…feeling God’s love for me, seeing the Holy Instant that glimmers so brightly in every one I see. I’m most amazed at being able to see this Holy Instant in Long-Nose.

Interesting how when I am ready the miracles appears. Seeing the Holy Instant in Long Nose is not entirely due in part that I have a beautiful sparkling 500# crystal on my front porch. It is not entirely due to him that I have this turquoise desk that knocks my eyes out in such glorious ways. But it is due to Long Nose who I can now be around and see the Holy Instant in, much like Jesus would, without wanting any investments for any changes to occur in him. These miracles are the changes in me.

Me? a miracle is merely in a change in my perceptions…how open my mind is to changes and how I seek Holy Spirit to undo the prevailing consequences standing in my way of change. I am grateful that I have no desire to leave this path of enlightenment that prevails on this vertically aligned venue prevailing in this cyberfamily knowing this is a non-dual Interstate Highway to Universal Love!…rell

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Early! Monday Grats...

I am grateful to be posting at this time...I know that Monday it too full to come to the computer to post. I will concentrate on turquoise paint...and get my project finished!

Well, I am grateful that I can play tennis, but it hard to be a grateful loser. I haven’t learned that yet. I am not an obnoxious loser, I just like to go and win…not go and lose. We lost our matches.

I am grateful to have the paint on all of my desk except the 3X6 top. It is primed and ready to go when I get some more get up. I do love that color. I am so grateful for this good neighbor, who when I asked him to help me turn the top over, he goes after his belt and vibrator sander…he proceeds to do most of the top with the belt sander. I have one of the jury chairs all finished in turquoise, too. There is one more chair and the top to go and I will be so tired of this project. It is a good thing that I only have enthusiasm when I start a project, I am unawares of the dedication to get something like this finished…I am grateful that I still feel excitement under all these draggie feelings.

I saw Matchstick Men, which was fairly cleverly done…but I do not know what caliber of mind it was made for, but I think that I figured out all of the sneaky and interesting mysteries.

I am grateful to be continuous with my Abe workshops…they are still important to me, I am attracting things that I did not think to ask for and yet I like them. I know that I am attracting them because I am getting them. It is referred to as attracting by default…my workshop desires are referred to as Deliberate Creations.

I am deliberately creating my mind for Higher Consciousness, as I plunder along this path. My spiritual mind was set up much like my computer is: by default...not really, it just seems like it and I act like it. Abe reveals that I can be deliberate about changing my mind just like when I have Andy over to deliberately change my PC to what I hold in mind…I Deliberately Create this desire for this vertical alignment to hold for inner peace and joy…rell

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Sunday's Gratitude..........

Today I am grateful I don't have a Client until 11:00. Always that clock time:o) in the future I will be picking up one at 9:00. I am watching the time as to see what I am able to do prior...... clean bird cage, water plants, sweep and wash floor etc. I like getting up the same time each morning and monday thru friday I start at 6:00. So in the future, sat and sunday it will be 9:00.

Today I am grateful to know the sensory world is a portal into infinity when nothing becomes no thing.

Today I am grateful for my Clients who allow me to practice being kind.

Today I am grateful to have told my Client who is recovering from surgery, that her workman's comp. person is like Hitler and she has to tell her "no." Her workman's comp. person wants her to cut her hours with her home care. My Client becomes elated because she is recovering and is beginning to walk but she is still on masses of drugs.

Upon reflection of the conversation with the doctor and the workman's comp person with my Client at her last visit, when the mention of awaking nerves came up.... it was not to worry for there are drugs for that..... Allows me to know I am addicted to form and my affliction with thinking well be restored as I stay present. We are all transparent where awakening cannot be stopped. I love how Thich Nhat Hanh shares we feed of food and feelings. We are a flowering consciousness.

Today I am grateful for being, and having a Cyberfamily to keep me vertical, love patty

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Fri grats, and I was also Thurs. anonymous Grats...

I am grateful today that I have such lovely new neighbors. Kindness just oooozzzes out every wheres.

I am grateful for this wonderful fall weather…I’m such a lover of summer that I dread fall…not so this year.

I am grateful to have my painting bay all ready to go when I get off the tennis courts today. I will start painting the desk the beautiful turquoise color and I wish sometimes I led a dull life, then I could get right at this gorgeous stuff without interruptions.

I was grateful to go by to see an old friend yesterday…we go such a long way back. Our older daughters started school together. They will soon be 54…Esther was studying a religious course that was interesting to her. She has another daughter who has had some difficult times…then stated that we have a forgiving God…then she remembered that line in lesson 46, ACIM, that says, "God does not forgive because He does not condemn.” Saying that if she ever got anything from ‘my’ CIM that it was this line when it comes to feeling compassion for this daughter. I merely smiled a twinkling little smile.

I love that line. "God does not forgive because He does not condemn.” I needed this information deeply imbedded within me.

Me? I will be on the courts of love this afternoon swacking those tennis balls like they are egobutts

…this gives me lots of spiritual relief as I aim to maintain my vertical path to higher enlightenment, while playing tennis…rell

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I am grateful that Jordan was around today. Now he is a friend for ya!…we helped each other with our State Inspections…so we can get our MO tags.

I am grateful my mornings are coming together with my Abe workshops…seems the 30 minute soft music tape is just right to stay with centering on my wants that I wish to attract. I am aware that I am not really attracting them, I am just becoming aware that they have always been here, but somehow I was too blind to see, or toooooo ego minded to attract.

I am grateful that I opened the course to lesson 45…it seems so appropriate for me.

“God is the Mind with which I think.”

W-45.1. Today's idea holds the key to what my real thoughts are. They are nothing that I think I think, just as nothing that I think I see is related to vision in any way. There is no relationship between what is real and what I think is real. Nothing that I think are my real thoughts resemble my real thoughts in any respect. Nothing that I think I see bears any resemblance to what vision will show me.

W-45.2. I think with the Mind of God. Therefore I share my thoughts with Him, as He shares His with me. They are the same thoughts, because they are thought by the same Mind. Nor do the thoughts I think with the Mind of God leave my mind, because thoughts do not leave their Source. Therefore, my thoughts are in the Mind of God.

Me? I always love to read again and again where thoughts or ideas never leave their Source…it gives me so much gratification that I have never been separated from God is so true! I feel the alignment with the vertical forces when I reread these sorts of lines…rell

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Wed. Humpday's Grats and guilts...?

I was grateful to be with the baby who calls me TaTaRell, we had such a sweet day. She is 18 months, and sets and reads her books as though she is preparing a lecture on World Peace. What a charming little girl, walks, runs, points, grunts, and knows several words in both English and Spanish. She is such a sweetie!

I am grateful that I can follow Holy Spirit guidance as I worked with this morning’s client who seems to demand seeing herself as a victim.

I am grateful to feel life on life’s term today. And I am grateful to be listening to Ekert Tolle on the Power of Now as I drive to and fro in my car. The feelings of “isness” and “beingness” seems so much more interesting as he walks me through life’s understandings, while I am driving…LOL?

Every now and then I want to be grateful on different levels. Yesterday I had Long Nose down to mow with the push mower in the places I don’t wanna ride on my convertible…(The riding mower) He is the one who has lost more than one earthly home due to ignorance... (ignorance: defined as ignoring the truth) Ignoring the truth appears to be so well established that he now lives in a subsadized highrise one room effeciency.

It is always a trip for me to accept him as he is and not desire for him to change a bit…but it is still hard to realize how dum a so called intelligent man can be!…and he can stay that way, which is my great awareness in that no matter how dum he may be, I can still see God loving him unconditionally and I do not wanna change him, and when he even gets a glimmer of me doing as God does, he takes it as I am sexually attracted to him even after he has explained that he caint.

No, he is not forceful in any way, except to take a casual distancing peck on the cheek as seeking an embrace…I will not consider a peck in any future times…and this is hard on me, cause I know such few dum men. I am aware that there is something about all of this paragraph where I am also dum…as this is what I am projecting…rell, go figure.

Opening ACIM to this page is so funny…I am grateful for my ACIM-CD-ROM…so these passages can be brought up just like God’s love for me…

The Cloud of Guilt

T-13.IX.1. Guilt remains the only thing that hides the Father, for guilt is the attack upon His Son. The guilty always condemn, and having done so they will still condemn, linking the future to the past as is the ego's law. Fidelity to this law lets no light in, for it demands fidelity to darkness and forbids awakening. The ego's laws are strict, and breaches are severely punished. Therefore give no obedience to its laws, for they are laws of punishment. And those who follow them believe that they are guilty, and so they must condemn. Between the future and the past the laws of God must intervene, if I would free myself. Atonement stands between them, like a lamp shining so brightly that the chain of darkness in which I bind myself will disappear.

Me? I never said I was not guilty…but it is truly interesting to me to see how much guilt I can still contain with me.

One would think that I have no enlightenment at all…O K rell, back to the ladders and the books, and the greatest teachers of us all: compassion, Jesus and Holy Spirit and this cyberfamily …rell

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Tuesday gratitudes...One can let go of fear, but can never let go of love..

ACIM wb-195 Gratitude goes hand in hand with love, and where one is the other must be found, for gratitude is but an aspect of the Love that is the Source of all creation.

I am grateful this day for miracles; for all the changes in my perceptions; for the many options that I have come before me before the day is over; for friends and family; for days past and days to come; and the “now” that is in this moment.
I am grateful for being with the women in my family for dinner last evening. Young one, my Grand Daughter, has so much to look forward to in her young life as it unfolds for her.

I am grateful for God’s love for me in so many ways. I love the way the redbirds are feeding as I awaken each day.

I am grateful to see the movie, “Anastasia,” last evening…I could feel her integrity and dignity regardless of what prevailed in her life.

I am grateful for setting up a tape player beside my bed…and for the tape, “Elevated Atmospheres,” recalling the essence of the Tai Chi poses.

I am grateful for ACIM lesson #79 that wants to encourage me that I will be successful to the extent to which I do not insist on defining my problems. And Jesus continues trying to assist my effort with saying, “Perhaps I will not succeed in letting go of my preconceived notions, and that isn’t necessary. But it is necessary to have some doubt about the reality of my version of what my problems are.”

Just like patty’s clients, she sees herself in each one’s strengths. I so admire her sharing…as I see me there too. It always seems anther rung on my ladder leading me to higher consciousness in a most inconspicuous way…as each of us relentlessly remain vertical…rell

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Tuesday's Gratitude.........

Today I am grateful for miracles:o) and they are natural.

Today I am grateful for this few minutes before my day starts.

Today I am grateful to have witnessed Mars.

Today I am grateful to identify with space consciousness. What a wonderful exit into the presence.

Today I am grateful my one Client�s husband who keeps requesting me and by the beginning of Nov. I will have 4 mornings with he and his wife. I now have 2 and it is wonderful to hear her say, "I wish it was you every morning." I explain to her, "I can't hoard you as you have a wonderful team:o)" I know some of my Clients are unable to express how grateful they are as they are busy putting life first and life is God.

Today I am grateful my Clients are all open to miracles in a Love that is inclusive.

Today I am grateful a Cyberfamily who keeps elevating me upward and outward, into the present, love patty

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Monday's Gratitude.....

Today I am grateful that I have some time before work and I woke myself up. Sing is slacking or I am early.

Today I am grateful for catching the young couple before they moved yesterday. We exchanged e-mail addresses.

Today I am grateful for clock time and my one Client who has to dance with workman's comp. Watching her trying to put her health into perspective while separating the doctor and the workman's comp. person agendas is interesting. I tired to tell her we all have a thinking disease. The gift or portal is always to remember there is no one sicker than me as it shifts you right out of the victim mentality into yielding to be in the present. I love stopping time by just seeing behind the eyes. Now is a choice:o) My Client watched the video Identity and I watched it over the weekend as it is easy to communicate through movies. It was difficult to watch but it truly shows the time-trapped mind. She also liked Heaven, which to me was a wonderful new age mob:o) film of rewriting Italy, putting principles before personalities. Cate Blanchett and Giovanni Ribisi were as transcending in it as they were in the Gift. I think I like this Heaven:o)

Today I am grateful for Matchsticks as it is a wonderful film of showing you there are two worlds:o) I am grateful my other Client�s wife went to see it and we will be able to dialogue about it.

Today I am grateful to witness my Clients wind bodies shift into illuminating bodies from a clear mind.

Today I am grateful my plant roommates are doing well as Laeha and Sing.

Today I am grateful my daughter is back home from her computer training class in Washington as her children must be thrilled as her husband.

Today I am grateful my son Joshua's cats had a wonderful visit under the bed and hiding in the corner with Lahea and Sing watching I am sure. Joshua and his girlfriend's landlord visited them again or couldn't make it the first time.

Today I am grateful I was able to explain to my Client and her husband not all people like me as they had a aide who didn't show up. Her husband seemed pleased:o) I guess I appear to be in a good position as I can come and go. My schedule only allows two visits a week with them. They are wonderful hosts, which resonate to all my other Clients for we are One.

Today I am grateful to have talked with my friend, former working friend:o) and she will have a slow week this week. I am sure she will enjoy the time to just be present.

Today I am grateful for a Cyberfamily to keep me aligned with nature as all nature looks up. love patty

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Friday gratitudes...Abe's workshop and Lesson 79

I am grateful for the willingness to stay focused on my Abraham Workshop exercises. Today I will add the third ‘want’ to my list dealing with this problem I have had with me living a life that predominately acted like I was separated from God up to the age 50 at least when at last I became aware of a Loving God.

My first page is people orientated, the second is on weight, and this third one is going each day with course lesson 79, “Let me recognize the problem so it can be solved.”
1. Abe suggests that I write a ‘want’ at the top of each page.
2. Then state all the reasons that I can list for wanting this.
3. Next state all the reasons why I believe I’ll have this.
And that I need set forth all the things I’ll expect and will keep expecting that I have this change in my perception, and it is so!

I am grateful to Abraham’s revelations on the Law of Attractions. This law is not new to me. 35 years ago I was given a little tiny book, “As A Man Thinketh.” This book set my mind into motion placing most of my thoughts into positiveness.

Another example was the story of Job regarding, “What Job feared most came upon him.” And it did…But somehow Job turned this around because he too was aware of positive thoughts. Job somehow knew that he was not separated from God and thrived his whole ordeal on “Faith,” or a change in his perception. I tend to see Job’s miracles were due to a change in his thinking during all of those disasters and that his fears had been brought on by himself. The bible says it was due to faith, but to me, faith is too laid back…requiring no actions. I tend to think it was his awareness that he had to see these events differently…and he did.

I am grateful for Dr. Loring Swaim, who in 1962 wrote a book, “Arthritis, Medicine, and the Spiritual Laws.” He stated it was the mind that took in fearing what it saw when one observed a relative or someone with crippling arthritis…setting into motion a fear of themselves having this dis ease. Dr. Swaim maintained in this book that since one’s fears were brought on by negative fearful thoughts, imagining "that for the grace of god that could be/will be ‘me’…all crippled up…just waiting for this to happen?" He maintained that the mind could just as easily change this back into a healthy person’s thinking. The course would say: “This is a change in perception”…the miracle.

Dr Swaim also maintained that many people who have brought this dis ease upon them selves, ie., such as Job, who had brought on his own disasters by his own fearfulness. That they now see this as their life style and would be unwilling to take on any responsibility in acquiring this dis ease. Instead they would find many reasons and grow very secure in mind-sets of misery, self-pity, and would not be desirous to turn arthritis around for themselves to become arthritic free. Such as Job was responsible for changing his disasters by changing his perceptions. Again, the miracle!

Me? I see maintaining my negative thinking as “a separation from God.” And you know me, “There’s got to be a better way…”

I am grateful to have opened ACIM to lesson 79 and to realize once again that my only problem (feeling of separation) has been solved when I become aware that God Himself would never exclude me…so therefore, why have I sought separation as a negative way of living?

This separation from God is not for me, nor Abe, nor Job, nor Jesus, nor Dr. Swaim, and it is up to me to change any negative thoughts that brought on the 2 reasons for me to go into my Workshop. There I will go each day to set up the necessary discipline to get a so-called problem solved.

If I know me, I’ll end up knowing that it was me, {{{{{lil ole rellalou, who still did not love herself enough yet. And she defocused her own stuff on others and her weight, whereby, lil ole rellalou could remain defocused off of loving her Higher Self and defocused off of recognizing that she had never been separated from God. In the meantime, as rellalou learned about compassion, she could afford to allow herself to go back to the Workshops and own how her own negative thoughts were hers...hers alone...and to change them as she pushed them out with compassion.}}}}}

Oh, ego, you do good work in keeping my vertical goals diverted. Now I wonder if I’d write my gratitude page nearly every day, and stay focused on what I attempt to focus on if this cyberfamily was not in my celestial space called my mind…known here as cybercountry, or cyberterritory?

I see my Abe exercise pages as laid out by Abe and ACIM, merely as miracles. (A step in discipline for me.) That it was my thinking that put me into fear. I had grown used to maintaining distancing, poor me’itis, dis ease, addictions, etc. And it will be my positive disciplined actions that will turn me around…OBTW, am I ever grateful that I have studied “Compassion” thereby becoming ever so gentle with me, as I daily continue to align vertically with this cyberfamily seeking Universal Love …rell

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Wed. Grats, Lesson 79 Let me recognize my problems are solved...

I am grateful this day to be involved with Abraham’s Workshop on stating my wants and expecting them…I am grateful to have started with the first of my wants on Monday and the second expected want in this morning’s Workshop. These 2 things have been a nemesis for me for quite a while…I am grateful that I am allowing my mind to take back its power over these.

I am grateful to have a 12- program awareness behind me as well as ACIM, to know that what is wanted does work out; and whatever the expectations; and according to the intensity of positive efforts that I am willing to apply. So be it!

I am grateful that Grand Son will come by today after class and cut my grass with a push mower that I do not like to try to get to with my so called “convertible” mower. I made him a Pineapple Upside Down Cake, and will cook Cornish Hens for our dinner. He had planned to do this yesterday, but got asked to participate in a study group for his course work. I am grateful that he is studying at this level.

I am not grateful that the trip out to Jordan’s rather flattened me for these last 2 days…but I was. I am writing the story of the uneventfulness of the event. I could call it “A BIG ZERO DAY.”

I am grateful to open the course to lesson 79, “Let me recognize the problem has been solved.”

I really need to stay with this whole lesson after my opening statement of gratefulness about finally going to my Workshop for results…I need to be willing to remain here with this lesson:

WB-79 prg5. No one could solve all the problems the world appears to hold. They seem to be on so many levels, in such varying forms and with such varied content, that they confront me with an impossible situation. Dismay and depression are inevitable as I regard them. Some spring up unexpectedly, just as I think I have resolved the previous ones. Others remain unsolved under a cloud of DENIAL, and rise to haunt me from time to time, only to be hidden again but still unsolved.

6. All this complexity is but a desperate attempt not to recognize the problem, and therefore not to let it be resolved. If I could recognize that my only problem is separation, no matter what form it takes, I could accept the answer because I would see its relevance. Perceiving the underlying constancy in all the problems that seem to confront me, I would understand that I have the means to solve them all. And I would use the means, because I recognize the problem.

Jesus is saying in this prg 7 that: In our longer practice periods today we will ask what the problem is, and what is the answer to it. We will not assume that we already know. We will try to free our minds of all the many different kinds of problems we think we have. We will try to realize that we have only one problem, which we have failed to recognize. We will ask what it is, and wait for the answer. We will be told. Then we will ask for the solution to it. And we will be told.

8. The exercises for today will be successful to the extent to which I do not insist on defining the problem.

Perhaps I will not succeed in letting all my preconceived notions go, but that is not necessary.

All that is necessary is to entertain some doubt about the reality of my version of what my problems are.

I are trying to recognize that I have been given the answer by recognizing the problem,  so that the problem and the answer can be brought together and I can be at peace.

Me? Yeah, I’d say that I wanted to take charge just as this lesson says by allowing Abe to tell me just how to do this, and then ego would get his way by detouring me with his favorite pasttimes of “Seek But Do Not Find?”

Oh, yeah…well ego…heres to you…

As I opened the course I did once again became aware that my problems are merely my investment in separation. Yes, I had gotten off my vertical path back to you God, as I stumbled and now smilingly pick me up mirrowing Holy Spirit’s smiles!…rell

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Sunday Grats and th Holy Instants

I am grateful to have my roots colored again…I do not question whether I will or I wont, somehow I’m just not ready for gray hair yet. It grays up over my ears, and a little at the front hairline. I feel that the color job enlivens my hair, which then enlivens me.

This is Grand Mom day. I am always grateful to hear from the Grand Children…both of them.

It is hard to get away from the tennis match (U S Open)…but I am going to. I am grateful for many more things than a tennis tournament.

I am grateful that those who come to this site seeming happy and fulfilled. Jennifer sounds so happy with her “God Sent Her” job! Lael going back to school, patty so perky with her clients…don’t cha jus luv how she is so in tune with each and every one of them? Once in a while we hear from our perky Beege, and lucy. And sometimes Nancy will appear. Yes, each of us are quite grateful for this site…did I leave any of the regulars one out? Oh yes, we are blessed by annie and Darley, Susanne, Craig, richard, sianna, and etc.

I turned to Ch 17,IV segment, prg 11:

The holy instant is a miniature of Heaven, sent me from Heaven. It is a picture, too, set in a frame. Yet if I accept this gift I will not see the frame at all, because the gift can only be accepted through my willingness to focus all my attention on the picture. The holy instant is a miniature of eternity. It is a picture of timelessness, set in a frame of time. If I focus on the picture, I will realize that it was only the frame that made me think it was a picture. Without the frame, the picture is seen as what it represents. For as the whole thought system of the ego lies in its gifts, so the whole of Heaven lies in this instant, borrowed from eternity and set in time for me.

Me? I refer to the ego’s thought system as my Belief System, or my …B S. And it is here where I can have many miracles in each and every day…it is here where my BS is changed, a Holy Instant occurs when I change my perception, (my BS) and see the change/s as God sees it/them. It is here where I travel on this vertical path aligning my changed thoughts with God’s…rell

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