Thank you for your support. It's very hard for me. My oldest daughter is very close to Gramma and I'm dreading the turn-out of this. I'm very angry that my mother cannot seem to deal with this in a more responsible manner. When I told her I wouldn't have anything to do with him, she told me that I've made my decision but she knows one thing: It doesn't pay to live in the past. I bit my tongue. I wanted so bad to say, "How can I not live in the past? I never lived in the present. I have to live somewhere." However, I told my sister that in order for me to move on I have to deal with my past. I fear my mother's the one living in the past, not me. And when I hear some of the things she's saying, I just laugh. I can just hear my step-sisters now. "Mom's not having Thanksgiving or Christmas because 'Dibella' won't have anything to do with 'Scott'". See, my fault, once again. lol as I'm laughing again.
Thank you so much for your support. It means so much to me.
Posted on Nov 12, 2001, 11:17 AM from IP address 63.161.12.129