rereading I see that I DID apologize to her and she never responded. Many of my posts to Paule were reactions to what the others were throwing at me. I guess I was assuming that her reaction to me was the same as theirs because I wan't getting any answers so I stepped across some lines there. I'm sorry about that. But it seems like Paule and I both got used in the same way. She doesn't have a chance to really get to know me, and I don't have a chance to show who I am to her.
It's very sad. So do I stay and keep attemping to post? A few people have posted to me and it was very nice. But it really sucks to have to filter through all the hurtful garbage and accusations to find those nice posts. Every barb puts me on the defensive and yet I am supposed to just start "sharing" about my life to a bunch of people who hate me for no reason? I have trust issues too, you know. Maybe they didn't like something I said but that doesn't seem like a reason to label me as a total complete asshole.
Posted on Jan 7, 2002, 5:12 AM from IP address 65.25.234.102