I would like to try to find out something, or somethings if that is ok.
I'd like to know if some feelings i have are because of what happened or if there is just something wrong with me.
Ok the first thing is if someone gives me somthing like a gift i get real embarressed and dont feel that good about it. But if i give them something i actually enjoy doing that and dont think that the other person should be imbarressed. This one really bothers me alot cos someone a friend wants to give me something but i cant accept it and i cant explain to her why and thats real hard because i have gave her stuff, i think she will think im crazy.
The other thing is i sometimes be nasty to people who are nice to me, like friends and they dont even have to do or say anything wrong for me to just be real nasty mainly just with words but its still not nice. I always feel real bad afterwords, and the worse part is i know what im doing is wrong.
Also i simply dont understand why i feel the ways i do sometimes which is real hard to explain what i mean but like it's like i don't get it with my feelings. Sometimes i can cry or laugh or be angry and not even know why. Other times i can really like someone one day and not like them the next and not understand why.
Does anyone else feel like any of this? if you dont thats kool or if you do and dont wanna say thats kool too i just thought this is a good place to ask.
Thanx.
Posted on Mar 22, 2002, 7:40 AM from IP address 203.54.111.35