in my family that's the number one word also. My mother is the Queen of Denial!!! ;0 )
My oldest brother did break down when he was confronted and admitted that he couldn't even look at his daughter he felt so horrible about what he did. I told him that I forgave him.
My other brother (they are only 1 year apart) INSISTS that I am to blame for everything. He has told me that he blames me for my mothers hurt. Because I told of course. This was when I confronted him when I was 14 and asked him why he hated me so much.
My mother thinks I'm living in the past and need to move on. She doesn't understand that I CANNOT move on when I am constantly confronted with HIM and his accusations when he is the one that hurt me so badly. HE is the one who told me my mother would hate me if I told. HE is the one that told me he would kill me if I said something. HE is the one who said no one would believe me anyway if I did tell. HE is the one who ignores me at family functions like I'm some piece of crap on the bottom of his shoe. And HE blames ME for what I have done to our mother. LOL LOL LOL I refuse to be in the same room as that perverted sh*thead and my mother doesn't understand that. The only way I can move on with my life is to keep HIM out of it.
So, shew! I feel better now that I have that off my chest. Thanks for listening. I got a bit upset there. Easter's here and I'm still being hounded as to if I'm coming or not. Apparently "NO" doesn't mean anything to my mother either.
I often times think of writting him a letter or sending him an email. Not that I know either addresses. But I often times think of doing it. Maybe one day I will sit down and do some thinking.
Posted on Mar 29, 2002, 11:11 AM from IP address 63.161.12.129