today was interesting and a little bit sad, but fun too
by hopey (no login)
we went to sea world with our friend trouble for our birthday which is actually in about 15 minutes
suzie...was so excited about going and she even got to feed some sting rays right at the beginning
she was so proud and she got to talk to a new friend for a minute
we were in a scooter (wheelchair type)
it made us sad cuz we know that our body is young and we should be able to walk because we don't look any different than anyone else, but when we dropped a water bottle, an older lady picked it up for us like she was sorry and it embarrrassed us
we CAN walk...but our fibro and the fact that we sprained our neck and hurt our back last week made it too hard to try to make it through the day
i don't understand tho...we went to see our dr last week and he says he can't give us a handi-capped license plate tag because we can walk 200 yards...well, yeah, but it hurts real badly
oh, this is such a long story...the kids went in cuz they could feel the bigs' embarrassment and we had to be quiet and not say anything
we've gotten to be a problem
we won't even go out tomorrow to where we want to go cuz it hurts to walk and we aren't gonna put any friends through this again
we are very lucky that they understood, yes, we are blessed, but we feel a need now to be on our own more so no one can notice
i wish the little ones weren't embarrassed and me too and i don't know how to handle it...it's not always bad, but then, it's getting kinda worse and we still do stuff we shouldn't
i'm not sure where i'm going with this...we aren't old enough to be old
hopey
Posted on May 4, 2002, 10:50 PM from IP address 205.188.199.167