Just thought I'd let you know how things are going. Saw my T on Fri she was very kind and as lovely as always, she will stick with me until the other service is up and running for me, thank goodness.
They have been much slower taking me onboard than my T thought they would be. "They" being a govt run psychiatric service, they are meant to have psychiatrists, psychologists, social workers, mental health nurses etc as a team.
I feel that noone knows what to do with me though. On Friday I agreed with my T that I nedded to go into hospital because Im still feeling so yuk. She sent me then to see my local Dr (whom she phoned) to get the refferal to go into the hospital. When I get to the Dr, she has phoned to Psych team they and she have decided that NO I don't need to go into hospital. They don't think it is anymore advantageous than being at home with my husband! What about that poor husband though and what about me. Other than my T noone is asking how I am feeling, it seems that unless you are waving a gun at your own head no one cares and then it will be too late.
I know something has to happen but I don't know what it is. I just dont know what to do. So what Ive done is pull up the remains of my limited reserves and am doing as much as I can to maintain the normalicy of my life. The sad thing is I feel far from "Normal" inside.
Sorry to be going on so much but I know you good people will listen
love
Terry
Posted on Jul 29, 2000, 9:19 PM from IP address 202.139.59.131