I appreciate your responses! Part of me wants to close myself off agian; stop letting it out. I hope the following helps explain my reaction a little: When I was in first grade, it was painful for me to go to the bathroom or to sit after a weekend visit at my father's. My teacher sat me down and questioned me about it. I actually told her what he was doing! I can remember hearing the words come out of my mouth, and being so scared...like I was confessing to a crime. She didn't get angry, but she told me that I needed to not let him do that to me. I needed to lock my door, or tell him that it wasn't something I wanted to do. I didn't know how to stop him, I tried to figure out what I was doing that made him keep doing it. When she questioned me later about it, I said that he had stopped. I didn't want her thinking that I wanted it. She told me that she just thought he was confused.
I haven't exactly had good luck talking to people about this, so I don't. I know I was probaly over-reacting to that website. I just don't want people to think I am delusional. My memories and feelings are very real, if they weren't it wouldn't be so hard to let them out! Danette
Posted on Sep 21, 2000, 10:09 PM from IP address 168.191.165.29