Danette, I don't think you were "over-reacting" to that web-site. I think you were reacting appropriately to all that has happened and to the responses you have gotten when you took the risk of sharing about this. It is just not possible to totally separate your reactions to the site, other people, etc., as though you were sorting eggs into small, medium, and large. Of course there is going to be some overflow.
I am sorry that teacher let you down. She placed too much of a burden on a very small child. She should have stepped in instead of expecting you to handle it. But at least she believed you. So many children are not believed because the perp manages to look good on the outside.
I don't think you are delusional at all. People who knew your dad and thought he was a good guy might have a hard time accepting the truth, but that does not change the truth. I am glad you have a safe place here to tell the truth. It is awful to have the memories, but much more healthful (IMHO) to recognize them as truth than to try to pretend everything was wonderful when it was not.
I am still mad that the teacher said you "needed to not let him do that." Sheesh. Did she really think the perp was going to listen to reason? I am sorry she failed you. It would have been so much different if she had used whatever power she had and stepped in to protect you.
I hope you will please keep letting it out in a safe way and at a safe pace, whatever that is for you. Steam pouring out of a tea kettle makes a lot of noise, but that is better than an explosion. Please take care,
Olive
Posted on Sep 22, 2000, 2:28 AM from IP address 166.90.23.94