hi I noticed I come here when I'm all mixed up or really down. (guess that can be considered normal)
I can feel myself starting to fall into a depression again. and I have no feelings for my husband.. I wish he'd leave me alone.. he wants a hug and in my mind I say.. leave me alone go away.This seems to happen when I'm depressed. I know I'm very overwhelmed with my kids right now. my oldest has ADD . my middle child has bipolar and ADD. we are all going through hell right now. I hate this I am having thoughts of ok heres a big knife to end all this shit. I hate it. and lately I keep telling my hubby I'm sick of everything. I said it would be nice if I wasn't the ONLY one cleaning the house. (meaning vaccuming , bathrooms dishes.. etc. ) I'm one person! I complain and he doesn't get it. I think part of my feelings shutting down for him is this resentfulness I have right now too. Does this make any sense??
Posted on Oct 30, 2000, 10:47 AM from IP address 24.4.252.66