Hi Terry! I read your post and want to say I know how you feel, and thank you for sharing. Reading your post has brought me some peace. I lost a very close friend in May. He died in a car accident. He was an awesome friend and he knew and understood the little child part of my soul. His loss was devastating to me and to the little girl part of me. He loved the child part of me and that love brought alot of healing in my life. I'm not sure how to get through the season with out him here. We spent alot of time together and he allowed me to play. That and the fact that my biological family has nothing to do with me makes this time of year very hard-especially knowing that the rest of my family will all be together. It's hard because this is supposed to be a happy time of year. I do know that Tony is still watching out for me and that brings some comfort and peace. Christmas was his favorite time of year. So I will try to be happy for him. I do have a small Christmas tree that I am going to take to the cemetary tomorrow. Reading your post this evening helped bring me some peace knowing that I planned on doing that tomorrow. Thank you again for sharing that here.
I too am also mourning the loss of my childhood due to physical and sexual abuse. The child part of me had been so looking forward to Christmas this year until my friend died. That really took the wind out of my sails. Hope you continue to find some peace in your life. Cindy
Posted on Dec 18, 2000, 2:20 AM from IP address 129.176.160.61