It has been a few day's since i first posted and i just want to say thankyou for replying to my post and for making me feel welcome. I am a little to exausted to post just now but i am reading and it does help a little. I just have a question for anyone who may be able to relate. My mum has been in a psych hospital since christmas due to losing her daughter. Anyway yesterday was a very bad day for me after yet another sleepless night, well for a while now i've been taking my anger out on those who don't deserve it, those who just want to be my friends, but yesterday i had had enough and went to the hopital to confront my mum and i let her have it realy bad, telling her everything with myself and my siblings was her fault and so on... Well i was thrown out of the hopital, at least she has protection "lucky her", but just before i was thrown out she screamed back at me saying she knows what myself and my siblings went through as "her brother", "our ab****" had done the same to her...Well i don't understand this, i don't understand her, why, i just can't understand why she left us with him knowing what he was capable of, has this happened to anyone else? Am i normal for not feeling bad for anything my mum went through, am i normal for hateing her, for wanting to scream and trash the house. I just do not understand, i would never, never let another person, let alone my own child go through the same as myself and my siblings.. I realy don't understand or know how i should feel..
Thankyou again for listening..
Take care, Star
Posted on Mar 25, 2001, 9:44 AM from IP address 203.101.17.58