I'm feeling better today than I did yesterday. After I left my T's office yesterday, I spent the night battling a blinding headache and blinding anger toward her. I talked to my husband, and he said that it sounded like she was being abusive to me. So, if this is true, I am going to spend the rest of the week trying to find a new T.
I've been doing more of the disassociating stuff. Yesterday after my appointment with my T, I was so angry that when I walked to the corner of Randolph and Wabash (I live in Chicago), I saw that the light was red. The next thing I knew was that the oncoming traffic was honking at me. I was in the middle of the street with cars coming at me! I ran to the other side, and miraculously did not get hurt or cause a pile
up. Don't ask me how! It was terrifying.
I noticed that these episodes have a very dangerous aspect to them. (ie. going into the bar last week, and walking into traffic yesterday.) This scares me.
Any words of wisdom or knowledge as to why these episodes are almost self-destructive?
Dina
Posted on Jul 25, 2001, 4:07 PM from IP address 198.173.24.162