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Words of a song....

by (Login HealingWymn)
Forum Owner

I was listening to a CD today, and heard the words of a song that made me think of y'all (I deleted the verse that didn't apply to ya'll.....)

You always thought your mother knew
Though you never said a word
You always thought that she'd come through
But I guess she never heard
When you said you said those words outloud
You thought she'd be ok
You asked for love and her support
But she just turned away

Let us be your family
Let us take you in
Let us be your family
A family of friends

It's more than ties of birth
It's more than flesh and blood
We're always waiting there for you
A family simply loves

Let us be your family
Let us take you in
Let us be your family
A family of friends

Posted on Jul 20, 2002, 7:02 PM
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What was the other verse?

by Anonymous (Login reeks)

I would like to hear the missing verse too.

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The other verse

by (Login HealingWymn)
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The song was not about being a survivor, I just was able to take those words that I copied and apply them as such. The other verse is this:

They bought the old victorian
With plans to fix it up
Forever was in store for them
But hope was not enough
Illness overlooked their dreams
It can disregard the heart
Now he goes upstairs alone
And lies there in the dark

Posted on Jul 21, 2002, 10:14 AM
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hmmmm

by Anonymous (Login reeks)

Seems like a really wonderful song. You know being a survivor isn't just about abuse, its making your way in the world. To me those words seem like they are very good.

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thanx terrie

by Jamie-lee (no login)

thanx for thinkin of us all an thanx for puttin them words 2 that song here...can i ask ya who does sing it an whats the name..?i do realy like another song thats 2 like related to peeps here an u might no it an its called... wash away those years ..an its by Creed..if in case ya dunno it ill put the lyrics here if ya want..
I luv ya

Posted on Jul 21, 2002, 3:06 PM
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them lyrics terrie...

by Jamie-lee (no login)

an i did just think ill will ptu em here in case its ok..an if its is not u can take em off ok....
luv ya..


CREED LYRICS

"Wash Away Those Years"

She came calling
One early morning
She showed her crown of thorns
She whispered softly
To tell a story
About how she had been wronged
As she lay lifeless
He stole her innocence
And this is how she carried on
This is how she carried on

Well I guess she closed her eyes
And just imagined everything's alright
But she could not hide her tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
They were sent to wash away those years

My anger's violent
But still I'm silent
When tragedy strikes at home
I know this decadence Is shared by millions
Remember you're not alone
Remember you're not alone

Well if you just close your eyes
And just imagine everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
Well if you just close your eyes
And just imagine everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
They were sent to wash away those years
Maybe we can wash away those years

For we have crossed many oceans
And we labor in between
In life there are many quotients
And I hope I find the mean
the mean, the mean

Well if you just close your eyes
And just imagine everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
Well if you just close your eyes
And just imagine everything's alright
But do not hide your tears
'Cause they were sent to wash away those years
Maybe we can wash away those years
I hope that you can wash away those years

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Wow

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Those lyrics are great! Thanks so much for sharing. The song I shared was by an artist called Jamie Anderson.

Love you,
Terrie

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thanx

by Jamie-lee (no login)

an i did check her out an am not real sure what folk art is but sounds kool any ways....
Later...an luv ya....

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Holy smokes....

by Mary (no login)

What CD is that on? I have one Creed CD, but I can't remember which one I have. I don't recall hearing this song though.

Posted on Jul 22, 2002, 9:02 AM
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Creed cds....

by Jamie-lee (no login)

Holy smokes..haha.. i like that sayin an never did hear it b4.. any ways that track is no 10 on Creeds cd called Human clay.. if u got the other cds called... My own prison or Weathered its isnt not on them ones..
have a good day..

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It's Weathered...

by Mary (no login)

Is Human Clay a new one?

Posted on Jul 22, 2002, 3:59 PM
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dunno

by Jamie-lee (no login)

i dunno if its is new.. them cds aint mine an i dont wanna ask.. an just in case u dont not beleve me about Human Clay i did find this site on the net that shows that cd an the others..
http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/singerAllAlbums/DB79084C34568FBF482569F4001E5271

Posted on Jul 22, 2002, 6:18 PM
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Looks like an older one... 1999

by Mary (no login)

I'll have to check and see if I can find it at Sam Goody or something. I'd like to hear that CD. I did find the lyrics to my song though at the site you sent. Neat site, by the way.

Forever Young
- Rod Stewart

May the good Lord be with you
Down every road you roam
And may sunshine and happiness
surround you when you're far from home
And may you grow to be proud
Dignified and true
And do unto others
As you'd have done to you
Be courageous and be brave
And in my heart you'll always stay
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young, Forever Young

May good fortune be with you
May your guiding light be strong
Build a stairway to heaven
with a prince or a vagabond

And may you never love in vain
and in my heart you will remain
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young
Forever Young

And when you finally fly away
I'll be hoping that I served you well
For all the wisdom of a lifetime
No one can ever tell

But whatever road you choose
I'm right behind you, win or lose
Forever Young, Forever Young
Forever Young ,Forever Young
Forever Young, Forever Young
For, Forever Young, Forever Young


Posted on Jul 22, 2002, 7:15 PM
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kool

by Jamie-lee (no login)

thanx for sharin ya fav song an i reckon its sounds real good....an if i did have a burner i would send ya a copy of the creed cd but i dont got a burner but i can record it to a tape if ya want an if ya dont want me havin yr addy i can send it some where else if ya want... my fav song ya probly wont not no but is from a band called Shaggy an ill put it here 2 in case some one might like it.......

ANGEL
Shooby dooby dooby doo woi
Shooby doo
Oh
Shooby doo dooby doo boi oi
Yeah, ah

Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady

Life is one big party when you’re still young
But who’s gonna have your back when it’s all done
It’s all good when you’re little, you have pure fun
Can’t be a fool, son, what about the long run
Looking back Shorty always mention
Said me not giving her much attention
She was there through my incarceration
I wanna show the nation my appreciation

Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady

You’re a queen and so you should be treated
Though you never get the lovin’ that you needed
Could have left, but I called and you heeded
Takin’ a beatin’, mission completed
Mama said that I and I dissed the program
Not the type to mess around with her emotion
But the feeling that I have for you is so strong
Been together so long and this could never be wrong

Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady

Uh, uh
Girl, in spite of my behavior, said I’m your savior
(You must be sent from up above)
And you appear to me so tender, say girl I surrender
(Thanks for giving me your love)

Girl, in spite of my behavior, well, you are my savior
(You must be sent from up above)
And you appear to me so tender, well, girl I surrender
(Said thanks for giving me your love)

Now life is one big party when you’re still young
And who’s gonna have your back when it’s all done
It’s all good when you’re little, you have pure fun
Can’t be a fool, son, what about the long run
Looking back Shorty always mention
Said me not giving her much attention
She was there through my incarceration
I wanna show the nation my appreciation

Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady

Girl, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Closer than my peeps you are to me, baby
Shorty, you’re my angel, you’re my darling angel
Girl, you’re my friend when I’m in need, lady.

Posted on Jul 22, 2002, 10:06 PM
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fixin somethin.....

by Jamie-lee (no login)

an did just wanna make correct somethin about Shaggy.. Shaggy is just a singer an not realy a intire band like say Nsync an he did used 2 be called Mr bombastic an has peeps dancin with him mostly.. any ways did just wanna say that in case some one did wonder what i did meant...

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Interesting....

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I'm in a group that does lip synching shows to raise money for charity, and a couple of our members did this song last year. hehe

Terrie

Posted on Jul 23, 2002, 7:37 AM
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Oh yes,

by Mary (no login)

I know that song well. That is a great song! I bought the CD and gave it to my daughter. I told her that is my song to her. I was going to fun during my lunch today and see if Sam Goody (that's the local music store up here) has that CD. But, thanks. I don't use tapes much anymore. To be honest, I don't even think I have a tape player... LOL





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Ok, I'm a little slow

by Mary (no login)

Where did you get that? What song is that from?

Posted on Jul 22, 2002, 8:42 AM
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It's from...

by (Login HealingWymn)
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The song I shared was by an artist called Jamie Anderson. I have all of her CD's. She is a lesbian folk singer.

Terrie



    
This message has been edited by HealingWymn from IP address 152.163.197.53 on Jul 22, 2002 6:30 PM

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folk singers..?

by Jamie-lee (no login)

i herd the sayin folk art b4 but dunno for real what that is an was wonderin whats is a folk singer an is that the same thing...?is it them peeps who ware cow girl an cow boy hats an boots an kinda jump around...? an hey do u like another lesbian singer called KD lang..? not real sure what kinda singer she is but i do got a cd of hers on now an she sounds ok just kinda a bit slow....is not my cd an just did wanna no what she was like cause i seen her on that show Opera one time an did reckon she was real funny....
luv ya
from Jamie-lee

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Folk singing...

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Folk singing is kinda laid back and often with a guitar. And I know of KD Lang. I like her one CD Ingenue. I have had other CD's of hers but didn't like them....I think she would be classified as soft rock. Some of Jamie Anderson's songs would also be classified as soft rock, when you get right down to it. LOL

Terrie

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thanx

by Jamie-lee (no login)

thanx for the explanation on Folk singin cause i dont no a hole lot about in music.. i was baught up listenin to me parents stuff an werent not alowed to listen to other stuff an so never got into in music much till i did move here an the stuff i did get used to was these real lame guys called the Highway men an Tony Childs... Jimmy Barns.. Elton John plus bands of Slayer.. an Guns n Roses an its is real embarresin not noin the stuff i should no an so im am tryin to learn lots about the more in bands b4 i go back 2 school again so i dont not get payed out on...


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nice

by (Login rynn)
Learning To Thrive

very nice.

here's the lyrics of my new favorite:

Utopia
By: Alanis Morissette
From the album: Under Rug Swept

we'd gather around
all in a room
fasten our belts
engage in dialogue
we'd all slow down
rest without guilt
not lie without fear
disagree sans judgement

we would stay and respond and expand and include and allow and forgive and enjoy and evolve and discern and inquire and accept and admit and divulge and
open and reach out and speak up

This is utopia this is my utopia
This is my ideal my end in sight
Utopia this is my utopia
This is my nirvana
My ultimate

we'd open our arms
we'd all jump in
we'd all coast down into safety nets

we would share and listen and support and welcome
be propelled by passion not invest in outcomes
we would breathe and be charmed and amused by difference
be gentle and make room for every emotion

we'd provide forums
we'd all speak out
we'd all be heard
we'd all feel seen

we'd rise post-obstacle
more defined more grateful
we would heal be humbled
and be unstoppable
we'd hold close and let go and know when to do which we'd release and disarm and stand up and feel safe

this is utopia this is my utopia
this is my ideal my end in sight
utopia this is my utopia
this is my nirvana
my ultimate



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kool song.. no more inside...

by Jamie-lee (no login)

:

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Since we're sharing....

by Mary (no login)

My most favorite song has always been, "Forever Young". I have always just loved that song.

Posted on Jul 22, 2002, 4:06 PM
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Sad & scared - ex stuff

by dawni etc (no login)

I feel as though we are the ones acting childish, but this isn't fair. She is taking everything, one by one, yet again. It has been a year, why can't she just let us be? What purpose do all these lies serve? Why can't we just have one or two little places to go where it is safe and why does she have to come and take them all away from us?

Sorry to complain about this but it really hurts and we are scared. We gave her the best placfe for self harm support and now she wants everything else too. What if she finsd here then we will have to leave too because it won't be safe either. Because how can anywhere be safe with her aound telling people that we did dirty things, yucky things that we didn't do.

Sorry. Just scared and sad.

~dawni etc

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hey dawni etc...

by Jamie-lee (no login)

ya no i dont reckon ya's are actin childish an i reckon id would be scared 2.. i 2 agree it aint fair that she keeps on lyin an keeps on taken safe places away from ya.. an u dont gotta be sorry cause u no what.. i dont reckon yr complainin an just are talkin about some stuff that is hurtin ya an thats real good.. if u meanin some one not on the net can u call the cops if she goes to yr house or can yr new husband get rid of her...? an if u do mean if she comes here to terries boards well u no what if she does do that an says stuff about ya's an that ya's did yucky stuff an all i wont not believe her an i dont reckon others will neither an if some one does believe her then they suck 2 so dont worry bout em...
Luv from Jamie-lee

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Jamie-Lee

by dawni etc (no login)

Hi sweety.

Thank you for replying. Yes, she is an online person, she lives down your way. Thank you for saying you wouldn't believe the lies that she tells, too. It helped us to feel a lot better to know that even if she came here there would still be safe people for us.

~dawni etc.

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Dawni...

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Please know that if she comes here, I will do my best to protect you. I do not allow people to be mean to each other here. I would delete her messages about you. You are safe here. And I'm so so sorry she has taken so much from you. I can only imagine how much it hurts, but do know it is devastating. I'm here for you Dawni. I believe you.

Love and safe hugs,
Terrie

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Terrie

by dawni etc (no login)

Just wanted to say thank you. It helps a lot to know you believe me/us and that you would do your best to keep this a safe place for us, so thank you.

Night Terrie (even though it's morning there).

~dawni etc

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Tam

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I moved your post to Memory Meadow
http://www.network54.com/Hide/Forum/59778

Peace,
Terrie

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Dear Abby...

by Mary (no login)

I sent a - well - quite lengthy letter to Dear Abby yesterday. I wonder if it will get published. I thought I did a pretty good job at it. Would anyone like to read it? It is pretty lengthy.

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Hi Mary

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Wow...any idea who is doing Dear Abby now? I didn't realize it was still there. I would love to read the letter. Good for you for writing it!!!

Smiles,
Terrie

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Abby vs. Ann

by Mary (no login)

I believe it was Ann Landers who passed away, not Abby. Not? I could be wrong though. I will email it to you because it is quite long.

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I thought...

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I thought both had....but I could be wrong. I know it was Ann who passed away recently.

Peace,
Terrie

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Hi....I'm back :)

by Terry (no login)

Hi Terrie, Thank you so much for the phone call a few weeks ago. It made me remember how much I need this place even though I needed to be away for a while.

Will write again soon,
much love

Terry

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terryyyyyyy

by sandra (no login)

your bak? how you? i miss yu lots....yu ok?
tell meok
sandra

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forgot to say

by sandra (no login)

welcome bak Terry ..........so glad yu bakkkkkkkkkkkkkk

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Hurray Terry

by NP (Login reeks)

Good to see you!

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{{{{{Terry}}}}}}

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Terry,
It is so good to see you here...I have missed you. I will look forward to your presence here as you are able.

Love you lots,
Terrie

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Welcome back...

by Mary (no login)

It's nice to see you are doing well.

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yuck yuck yuck

by x of dawnis etc (no login)

we got the flu!!! supose to be gettinn lots a sleep n restin but beink sick makes us smal n scare n yuckn can t sleep cos of ycuk thinx!!! this sux bad!!!

from x of dawnis etc

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hey x

by Jamie-lee (no login)

im am real sorry that ya have got the flu an feelin real bad cause that does suck huh.... an am sorry u feelin scared an yuck an ya cant sleep cause of yuk things an i hope that ya can feel beter soon..
im am sendin ya lots an lots of fairy wishes for much beter an not so yukky feelins an days an for some dreams like the dreams in fairy tales an i no that aint real an dont exist but is a nice thought to pretend for a bit some times huh.....when i feel real yuk i do some times close me eyes an pretend im am some other person in some other place an pretend im am real happy an i no ya gotta stop pretendin but ya mind can have just one min peace an some times it can be good...


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Hi x

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I'm so sorry you feel sick, and I hope you feel better soon. I know it's hard to feel small and scared and to not be able to sleep, but please know you are not alone.....

Terrie

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for Dee

by Meg (no login)

Hey Dee-
I use to post here some a while ago- used the name Margaret then. Was just reading posts and saw have DID- we do also and are doing fairly well- have a great T. We are not far from where you live. I'm going to email Terrie and let her know she can give you my email address if you're interested in talking more.
Take care
Meg

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New Improved Chat room!!!

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I have found a new place to get a free chatroom and have created a new one, accessible by clicking on the "Chat now" button. It will open a new window, and will take a minute to connect, but seems to work better than the old one (which is still there, as well). Hope to see y'all there!

Peace,
Terrie

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Hi Terrie!

by dee (no login)

Hi Terrie! You said you might have some info on hospitals in my area that offer support groups for survivors. I live in Annapolis Maryland. I appreciate any info you can give. I don't know anyone else with D.I.D and it is getting very difficult for me to function like this without support.

Thanks,
Dee

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hey dee

by Jamie-lee (no login)

i no ya post is to Terrie an all an ya dunno me but i did wanna post some stuff i did find for ya cause just in case Terrie dont check in here right away an in case ya need some one real bad...hope ya dont care about me doin this.....but anyways heres the stuffs i did find...

Onionskins Collective
1 Dale Drive
Annapolis, Md 21403
Support group for survivors of incest...
it dont say nothin about peeps with DID but i reckon there maybe some peeps there with it 2 or maybe they can no some thin about it.

Mental Health Division - Annapolis: 410-222-7150
2200 Somerville Road
Annapolis, Md 21401
an this is where i did get that stuff from
http://www.dpscs.state.md.us/vsm/anne.htm
bye from Jamie-lee

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Hi Dee

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Sounds like Jamie-lee is on top of it! The resources I have are for like hospitals and
treatment centers, rather than just therapists or support groups. I don't have any listings in
Annapolis, but I do have these ones in Maryland:

Chestnut Lodge Hospital
500 West Montgomery Avenue
Rockville, MD 20850
(301)424-8300
Fax:(301)762-2050
Day program
(Rockville is off of Hwy 85 just north of Wash. DC)

Sheppard & Enoch Pratt Hospital
6501 N. Charles St.
Baltimore, MD 21285-6815
(410)938-5070
Richard J. Loewenstein, M.D., Director
located in Baltimore, MD has developed a comprehensive continuum of care for the
treatment of people with trauma disorders including dissociative disorders and other
complex post-traumatic conditions. Trauma Disorders Services at Sheppard Pratt offer
clinical options designed to meet every level of patient symptomatology and treatment
history. They offer Inpatient Clinical Services as well as Day Hospital/Intensive Outpatient
Program.

I also have this one for Wash DC:

Center Post-Traumatic & Dissociative Disorders Programs
The Psychiatric Institute of Washington
4228 Wisconsin Avenue, NW,
Washington, DC
(800)369-2273
Post Traumatic & Dissociative Disorders Program Skilled Intervention for Rapid Stabilization.
The Center provides short-term, directed inpatient treatment for adults who exhibit acute
symptoms associated with post-traumatic and dissociative disorders.
The Day Center, a partial hospitalization option, is available for those who do not require
24-hour care.

The website I got these from is at:

http://home.att.net/~boyym/Hospitals.html

Hope this helps!

Terrie

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Thanks Jamie-lee and Terrie!

by Dee (no login)

Thank you, thank you. You are both so wonderful. I appreciate you getting back to me so quickly with this info. I'll let you know how it pans out. Wish me luck in working up the nerve to call. I am just now learning how to ask for help. Thanks again for helping me.
Love,
Dee

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dee....

by Jamie-lee (no login)

sending ya LOTS an LOTS an LOTS of best luck wishes for callin someone an askin for help. I reckon askin for help an how ya just learnin to do that is real kool an ya should be real proud of yaself for wantin to get help an all that.....an it will be good to no how ya go with it all like ya said....an i did to wanna put this link here for ya 2 that i did forget to put last night an its is a link for support on the net like forums an mailin lists an books an stuff for peeps with DID an plus MPD an i dunno if there diff things but has got all diff sites for i dont realy understand but littles an somethin else called muliples an others an i think they all mean the same but am not real sure but u probly no so heres is that link if ya wanna look:
http://home.att.net/~boyym/MPDDIDForums.html
well good luck an hope ya have a good day.....
luv from Jamie-lee

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Thanks for all the luck Jamie-lee!

by Dee (no login)

I appreciate your thoughtfulness. You are so sweet. I will definitely check out your link. Thanks so much. I feel like such a helpless nincompoop sometimes. Thank you again. Maybe I'll get used to this asking for help thing. It's so hard to trust paople, you know. I keep expecting rejection. Thanks for all your help.
Sending you love and best wishes too,
Dee

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another MD resource

by Meg (no login)

Hey dee-
just saw what you were looking for- Terrie actually was asking me about Sheppard Pratt the other night-
Sidran Foundation has a ton of info on DID and is located in Towson- don't know the address but if you put it in a search engine I'm sure you'll find it.
Meg

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Results are back...

by dawni (no login)

We got his results back.. its not a tumor *breathes*
They are saying that it is a contusion caused by a ruptured ligament. He's got a couple more weeks off work, they're trying to fit him into the ligament specialist's busy schedule and then they'll talk about whether he's going to have to rearrange his life around this thing or if they'll do microsurgery.

Just though you might like to know.

~dawni etc

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Whew!

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I'm so glad it's not a tumor! Thank you for letting us know. Keep us posted on his treatment. How are you doing????

Terrie

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:)

by dawni (no login)

Hi Terrie,

We are doing okay. Today is not a good day but that is alright. We ahve also just gotten over some throat thing, not sure what but for a few days there one side was all icky and sore. It was weird but thankfully with lots of Vitamin C and rest it's gone.

Love, dawni

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hey dawni etc..........

by Jamie-lee (no login)

am real happy it werent no tumor an i do just wanna say i hope every thin goes ok with the ligament stuff an the specialist is good an helpful...an the pic ya made not so long ago that u posted down further is TOTALY AWESOME..........an i reckon what u do is o kool.. i did see ya other ones on ya web site an they are all real kool...i reckon the one ya posted her is the best but.. an about ya serveys i did fill ya cant reply to me cause i didnt not give a addy cause i didnt no if they was gunna go on the net or not an i dont put me addy on the net.....
nighty nights....
luv from Jamie-lee

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Hi Jamie-Lee!

by dawni (no login)

Heya. I'm glad you like the pic.. I'm going to use it for my next layout smile

Ooh, that's right. I was going to ask for your email, and I did want to let you know that if you fill in a survey on my site then your email stays private between me and you Only my guestbook will automatically add it to my site, everything else just sends it to my email so that I can reply to you.

Love, dawni

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hey dawni :)

by Jamie-lee (no login)

well i reckon it will look kool for ya next layout
an thanx for tellin me about the email stuff an ill will email me addy to ya k.....
hope ya havin a kool week end....
luv from Jamie-lee

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That's great to hear

by Mar y (no login)

I am so glad to hear that it is nothing life threatening.

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hipnostisise....i cant spell what im sayin

by Jamie-lee (no login)

i cant spell what im am meaning but if ya can understand what im tryin to say do u no whats it all about cause at todays oh so wonderful NOT couseling sesion the shrink did say she wants to do it soon but i dunno.... like have ya seen them shows on the tele that make peeps do silly stuff an pretend there chickens an stuffs well can a shrink make ya do stuff u dont wanna do if they hipnostisise ya like on them shows ? she reckons she wants to do it cause it will help but im thinkin shes just trickin me an wants me to tell her stuff i dont wanna....an she 2 wants to video record me but when i did ask if i can be abel to see the video 2 she did say she dont reckon thats a good idea but im thinkin why not an thats why i reckon shes tryin to trick me...any one no about it ?

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My two cents

by dawni (no login)

Well, noone has ever suggested hypnotising us, and they're lucky they haven't. We definately would not feel comfortable with that, but on the other side of the coin, hypnosis is supposed to be very helpful in dealing with repressed memories and stuff.

If you're not comfortable with it, I think you should tell your shrink that and I think she should wait until you ARE comfortable with it. And I think you should be able to see the video (in a safe environment where you can stop it and do something to calm down again in case of being triggered) if that will make you feel more comfortable with it.

Just my two cents worth.

Love, dawni

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thanx for ya 2 cents :)

by Jamie-lee (no login)

an i think im am just gunna tell her no cause ya no what else there aint nothin wrong with me memory an she does no that an i reckon she just wants to no stuff i dont want her 2... ya gotta watch them shrinks ya no.....
Luv Jamie-lee

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My understanding...

by (Login HealingWymn)
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My understanding of hypnosis is that you can't be hypnotised unless you are willing to be hypnotised. However, for those who are willing, I hear it is a very therapeutic thing to do and can be really helpful in dealing with stuff. It won't work if you're not ready though....

Love you,
Terrie

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thanx terrie

by Jamie-lee (no login)

thanx Terrie an nah ya cant get it done if ya dont wanna an i was asked if i wanna but am not gunna.. i seen how them peeps on the tele act when they think there chickens an stuff an they look kinda silly...she wanted to try it cause might help for court but im am just gunna try an do good an say what they want me 2 instead....
Luv ya.....from Jamie-lee

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lisa.....Terrie.....an dawni

by Jamie-lee (no login)

i did find a poem i wanna put here for ya's..

I WISH FOR YOU.
Happiness, deep down within.
Serenity, with each sunrise.
Success, in each facet of your life.
Close and caring friends.
Love that never ends.

A bright today,
with much to be thankful for.
A path, that leads to beautiful tomorrows.

Dreams, that do their best
to come true,
and appreciation of all
the wonderful things about you.
~author unknown~

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Thank you!

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Thank you so much...this is wonderful.

Love you lots,
Terrie

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Awws...

by dawni (no login)

Thank you Jamie-Lee.. that was beautiful! I wish all those things for you, as well.

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jaime-lee

by lisa (no login)

tanx for the poam.....
yu deserv tis too

lisa

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Jamie-Lee..

by Anonymous (no login)

I saw a post of yours to someone else and you were asking about sites with stuff to do and stuff on them... I know a couple of good games sites that I love.

There's Neopets (http://www.neopets.com/), Popcap (http://www.popcap.com/) and Orisinal Morning Sunshine (http://www.ferryhalim.com/orisinal/) that I can think of off the top of my head. If I think of more later I will post again with them.

Love, dawni

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kool an thanx

by Jamie-lee (no login)

thanx heaps for the sites dawni an there pretty kool an i have some thin to do tonight now cause i do get just sooooooooooooooooooo bored...an i did like the fairyhalim one the best an some of those games are awesome..my favs that i played so far is pocket full of stars an thats cute..an snowbowling an i think its real funny how the peeps go flyin in the air when u hit em..
love from Jamie-lee

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Sorry

by dawni (no login)

Sorry.. we haven't dropped off the face of the planet. Things have been busy here and a lot of new things, happenings and stuff. Um. We have been kind of okay, trying to deal well with so many changes and such. Husband has an odd lump on his foot which the doctors are very unsure about. On Tuesday he gets blood tests back that will tell him whether its a tumor or not (fingers crossed!!) and in the meantime he's had the week off work so it doesn't get worse.

Jst wanted to say we're still around even if not really totally coherent.

Love, dawni etcs

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Hi dawni!

by (Login HealingWymn)
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So glad to hear from you! Yes, I know that changes can be very unsettling and can keep one very busy. I will look forward to when you have more time and energy to be here more, but will keep you in my thoughts in the meantime. Also, am keeping my fingers crossed that your hubby's medical tests turn out well.

Peace,
Terrie

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Hey Terrie!!

by dawni (no login)

nodd We are still around on aim and all.. just can't ever seem to think of anythibg when we come here most days. Evreything is super scatty when it comes to this.

We joinefd up to The Site Fights again Terrie hehe, as a spirit fairy. I think that's where all our coherency is gone. That and working on the domain lots. (Did we tell you we bought one? We lovelovelove it!)

Love dawni

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dawni

by (Login HealingWymn)
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What are Site Fites? Please do tell. And also about your domain! Tell tell tell...please. heheheh

Love you,
Terrie

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Hi Terrie, hehe

by dawni (no login)

The Site Fights is a big "community" on the net - the first internet sport, hehe. Basically people submit their pages and try to get votes & make it to the warzone & dome (final rounds). There are heaps and heaps of different teams tat you can join on and there's always lots of games and fun there. The best thjing is the sites that are fighting are all supposed to be kid safe/friendly which is totally awesome. Plus, if you don't want to "fight" you can still be a Spirit/Sprite, Quill, Fairy (over 18 only) or Wee One (13-17 inclusive). Its really great fun, but it takes a fair amount of time.

About the domain.. well, its called Blooish.Org hehe because blue is such an awesome colour, and blooish is such an awesome word! ATM the layout is a pic of us and hubby that we fiddled with but soon it will be changing. Its so cool!! We love it to death.

Love, dawni

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hey dawni

by Jamie-lee (no login)

u dont gotta be sorry for nothin.........an is kool ya's havnt dropped of the planet.. i did just wanna say hey an i hope that ya husbands tests come back in ok.
luv Jamie-lee

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Jamie-Lee!

by dawni (no login)

Hi! Its good to see you around again! You have been in my thoughts a lot lately. Hope you're doing wonderfully.

Thanks for the hopes with hubby's tests.. I'm sure they'll be fine. *nodding more confidently than I really feel*. He's tough, though, and he assures me that the hospital he is going to are very competant so I will just trust in him and hope for the best.

Love, dawni

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hey :)

by Jamie-lee (no login)

am glad ya hubbys tough an that the hospital hes goin to are very comeptent...thats like another word for good right ? well i do hope there real good an they help him....i will keep ya's in me thoughts an u dont gotta nod all confindent an is kool to say ya realy feel scared or sad or any thin else ya could be feelin.....thanx for thinkin of me an im am doin good
well gotta go shower an get in me jarmies an all warmed up ready to watch big brother eviction cause right now apart from home & away an neighbours its is my fav show........... do u watch big bro an if ya do who do u want to win ...? i do hope that Pete or Jessica wins cause there each real cute an real nice peeps an i dont for real like Sara or Marty...
luv from Jamie-lee

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Hey back! :)

by dawni (no login)

Nope, I don't watch Big Brother.. but I did see one or two bits and pieces from when Katrina was on. Do you remmeber her? I watched one that had her in it because I was talking to a friend and she said that Katrina talked a lot the same as me. And you know what? She was very right!! It made me laugh at the time.
If you think that Jessica and Pete are nice though, I hope that they win!

And yup, competant (or competent - I don't remember which is the right spelling atm) is another word for good.

And I'm very glad that you're doing good.
Night Jamie-Lee!

Love, dawni

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hey hey hey :(

by Jamie-lee (no login)

ok very sad here cause Jessica did get evicted... am not realy sad an am j/k ...dont matter cause Pete might still win... an yeh i remember Katrina but didnt much like her an i reckon she was a try hard lamer cause she kissed Sara just so peeps can think she was kool cause Sara digs chicks an Katrina digs guys an she did say she only just did it to be kool...duh as if......she was SO NOT kool an realy was up her self an she did talk nasty to peeps 2... BUT i do reckon is kool u sound like her cause she sounded good an she just was a up her self try hard lamer an not nice.....but i do reckon yr kool....
good nite
luv from a real bitchy ME....


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*giggles*

by dawni (no login)

Aww she did? No fair! I didn't see a lot of Katrina.. just one thing and she was throwing a sort of mini tanti.. that was what reminded me of me the most I think. She tended to talk with her hands a lot and she did the same voice inflections (tones) as I tend to do.

And I don't think you're bitchy.

Love, dawni

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hahaha

by Jamie-lee (no login)

oh u did crack me up......an she did throw lots of those tantis...haha... an i reckon its is kool ya talk with ya hands cause i do 2 an i do it lots... hey do u watch any shows on the tele like not big bro but others like H&A or neighbours or all saints or rove or malcom in the middle or any of the others ? i like tele lots an i watch lots of it 2...am a regular couch potato an i LUV IT..............
luv from Jamie-lee

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TV :)

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I don't watch nearly as much TV as I used to.. but I do catch some shows. These days most things we watch while we're on here, though. Like right now, we just finished watching Franklin. giggles

I love Rove Live, though, and Malcolm in the Middle! Hmm. Lots of things we watch are on Foxtel, though, so I don't know if you see them too. Um, but I like Becker, Cheers and Whose Line Is It Anyway.

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:) :) :)

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kool i did think i was the only one who did that of watchin the tele an bein on the net 2 at the same times....i was told i do spend 2 much time on the net an watchin the tele an me brain will fry if i do it 2 much....haha yeh as if........an i reckon is kool ya's luv Rove Live 2 an i reckon he is soooooooooo cute an so is Malcolm but hes 2 young...well hes older then me but i reckon Rove is beter anyways....an i did used to watch Cheers but not Becker or the Whose line is it anyway...we dont get Foxtel here cause ya cant run any kinda cable in this area an only satalite... but i reckon Franklin is the cutest lil turtle around...haha.. an when i did live with me mum this lil kid next door did have books an vids all about him an i used to watch em with him....i did just watch Beauty an the Beast which im am not spose to cause me carer reckons its for just adults but it aint that full on an i no lotsa stuff anyways an reckon she only stresses 2 much.. an man i tell ya i gotta do some thin to pass the time or i WILL GO NUTS......ya no i get that bored i even reckon some times it would be good to be at school an thats sayin somethin......well i better get of here now an it was fun talkin to ya on here an thanx for tellin me the shows ya like .....
luv from Jamie-lee

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*smiles back atcha*

by dawni (no login)

I get told all the time that I'm spending far too much time on the 'net! Rove IS a cutey. And the best part of it is that he's Australian.
I think that Becker is on normal TV, or it was for a little while at least. Whose Line is a reallyreally funny show. I agree about Franklin, too. He's adorable! Beaver's pretty grumpy though, hehehe.

I watch Beauty & The Beast sometimes. I guess I can see why your fmum mightn't like you watching it, but you're right.. it's not that bad. I get really annoyed at it some days, though.

I know what you mean about getting bored a lot. I usually work on a new graphic or layout when it happens to me.

Love, dawni

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an more back atcha :)

by Jamie-lee (no login)

glad ya get told ya spend to much time on here 2 . i will check it out an see if my carer gets Becker or Whose line on the normal or satalite channels an if she does ill watch em........is kool u watch Beauty an the Best sometimes an ya no it does annoy me some times 2 especialy some of the girls an when Stan was the host an i didnt much like how he did treat some of em but my fav always was Carlotta cause shes real kool...an guess what ? me step dad did use to work at a club for transgender peeps in the city an he werent one of em just did work there an i did have to go with him some times an wait till he finished which was real borin but this one night i did get to meet Carlotta cause she was doin some promo thing or somethin an oh shes just so totally awesome an funny an so much better then on Beauty & the Beast...an well i should stop goin on now an do somethin else huh...oh yeh an what do ya do with graphics an layout stuff ? like do u make pics an stuff on the puter ? i dunno a whole lot about puters..
nighty nites
luv from Jamie-lee


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An example.. :)

by dawni (no login)

I don't think Whose Line is on the normal channels.. which is a big shame. But then again, your carer might not be too comfy with you watching it anyway. It's kind of a little "naughty" in places. But they're funny people, anyways.

grin I saw you went to my site.. hehehe. Thanks for signing the book and stuff!! (I promise I will reply to what you send via form eventually..)
Yup, I do make pictures on the puter. Usually I start with a picture that already exists and I modify it and make it look really funky. It is so much fun to do and it makes me feel good inside. This is one that I made not too long ago:



(I hope that's right!)

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yikes

by dee (no login)

Hi everybody. My name's dee. i posted here a long time ago. i have d.i.d. i am having such a hard time functioning, trying to stay big, trying to pay attention to what's going on outside my head, i am such a wreck right now. i feel like i am on switch o-matic. the panic is terrible. i am constantly fighting to hang onto present reality. i just need someone to tell me this is really worth it and that it goes away.
i am trying to hold down a full-time job and heal (which is like a full time job and a half). if anyone has any tricks that help them get through the day that you'd like to share, please do. i don't know how many more days of this i can stand. i am trying to avoid another hospital stay as the bills are piling up.
thanks for taking the time to read this,
dee

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Hi Dee!

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I'm afraid that as a monomind, I don't have any great words of advice on how to deal with all that you are dealing with. I can say, though, based on knowing other people, that it can definately get better if you continue to work on your healing! If there is anything I can do to help you though this, please let me know....

Peace,
Terrie

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Thanks.

by dee (no login)

Thanks Terrie. It helps to know other people have gotten through this. I just get so low sometimes.
Have you ever been to any meetings with other survivors? And if so, did you find it helpful? I have a small handful of friends and they just don't seem to get how difficult this can be sometimes, I thought maybe with other survivors I could find a more understanding kind of support. I appreciate your feedback.

Thanks again,
dee

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Hi Dee

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Yes, many years ago I went to some Survivors of Incest Anonymous meetings, and also did a short term group therapy with survivors. I was still pretty closed off at the time, but I ended up making one really good friend who is still my friend today, and who understands. I think that it can be greatly beneficial to connect with others who have been there and who know how difficult it can be.

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Thanks Terrie!

by dee (no login)

Thanks for responding so quickly to my messages. It makes me feel better knowing that there's a safe place to talk about these things. It's nice not to feel so alone with this incest crap.
I think I am going to find a support group or try to connect with other D.I.D survivors. I just need that kind of support right now. I'm just starting to learn how to fuction without them taking over all the time. I"m glad you found it helpful and made a friend through it. That gives me hope.
Thanks again, Terrie.
dee

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Hi Dee

by (Login HealingWymn)
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What part of the country do you live in? Or are you even in the USA? I have a link on my computer at work of a list of hospitals that deal with DID and if one is near you, perhaps they would know if there is a support group in the area....

Peace,
Terrie

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Hi Terrie!

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Hi Terrie! I live in the USA in Annapolis, Maryland. Not far from Baltimore. Any information you can give me would be most helpful.

Thanks,
Dee

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I faced him

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Hi all, My little ones used to post on the other board, and they just found the addy and went there to post that us "big girls" faced our brother today. It is a longgggg story and I have been up for awhile,and am just going to work now. Yeah, it is only 5:30AM where I live, but, there is work to be done in this world, and joy to be had! teehee! He did not admit all of the abuse, or even much of it. BUt, Iknow he remembers and I know he feels bad. And, I know that I have taken my power back, and that I have created a life of decency and truth, and good, and compassion. ANd, that is my committment, to keep on working on that life. Peace, Flute

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Yay for you!

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I'm so proud of you flute! That is awesome! I know it must have been so empowering for you!!! Yayayayayay!!!!

Big smiles,
Terrie

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I hav a quetion

by lisa (no login)

Can sumbody be happy an sad at same time?
Why is hurt so much?
lisa

Posted on Jun 10, 2002, 9:16 AM
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Hi lisa

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Yes, someone sure can be happy and sad at the same time, and I think it hurts anytime we feel sad feelings just cuz they are sad. I hope that you feel better soon sweetie. I love you.

Safe hugs,
Terrie

Posted on Jun 12, 2002, 9:00 PM
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Re: Hi lisa

by lisa (no login)

is so complicated.....dont lik be sad....is hurt much....

Posted on Jun 13, 2002, 11:03 PM
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Hi sweetie

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Yes, you are right, it is very complicated at times. And I can sure understand not liking being sad, cuz I don't like being sad either. Would you like to talk about what you are sad about?

Love you,
Terrie

Posted on Jun 14, 2002, 7:27 AM
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terrie

by lisa (no login)

I am sad...
Wen hav frinds yu care about...tey git hurt...or...hav to leave...even if is for there gud...still they go an ..feel like....alon..an skar ofr them...an...is like....they not come bak..it is lik that most of time....
I am appy som git help...an they git betr..and be hapy....an hav real family that lov them.....an i know is not for me.....but ome day i wana be a real real outside 9 yrs old...an be happy an lov....an hav a momy an dady thet lov me.an not hurt....an...yu no ..be nornal...
lisa

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Hi lisa

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I can sure understand all those feelings you have. I know it hurts to have friends go away, even if you know that they will be happier or whatever, it's still a loss for you. And I know it must be hard sometimes to not be able to be a real outside 9 year old on the outside, and to not have a good mommy and daddy that are able to love. Because you really do deserve to be loved, and you are very lovable, and you do not deserve to get hurt. I love you lisa.

Safe hugs,
Terrie

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terrie

by lisa (no login)

My hart feel like is crying??? an.....or like is hurt...and blleding...i no make sense.....i sorry......i too sad....

thank yu for sayin i deserv be lov..

i lov yu terrie....very much...

lisa

Posted on Jun 15, 2002, 11:34 PM
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Hi sweetie

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Yes, sometimes it does feel like our heart is crying or hurt or bleeding. That is why they call it a broken heart when we lose someone we love. But our heart can "break" for other reasons too. And all it is is big big feelings. Our real heart really isn't hurt, it is just our big big feelings. And it does hurt, I know. I love you lisa.

Safe hugs,
Terrie

Posted on Jun 16, 2002, 9:23 AM
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terie

by lisa (no login)

it hurt more to loos tis frind ten to loos te moter.....
i alredy forgit wat te moter look lik an not tring to membr.......
tis frind i nevr saw....i feel lik iz a litl piec of me tat go with her....wen she went away.....
te feelings are too too big terrie......too too bigs.......
sad sad sad lisa

i lov you too terrie

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lisa

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Please know that if there is anything I can do to help you feel better, I will do it. Just let me know, ok? I'm here for you, and I love you.

Safe hugs,
Terrie

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terrie

by lisa (no login)

ol me ok........need cudle
lisa

Posted on Jun 18, 2002, 10:37 PM
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lisa

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Holding you safely.....

I love you,
Terrie

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Regarding "Jamie-lee"

by Jackie (no login)

Hello,

My name is Jackie, i am Jamie's foster parent.

Jamie has requested i make a submission on her behalf, due to not being in a position to do so herself at this time. Jamie requires some "time out", and will contact you herself, when she is able to. She may not be back on the internet for some time.

I must inform you, that i fully respect your need for privacy, and have not read any submissions here, other than those by, Jamie, of which i have been asked to read.

I sincerely thank you, for the support you have given Jamie, it is much appreciated.

Posted on Jun 8, 2002, 9:48 AM
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Jackie

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Thank you so much for letting us know that Jamie-lee is taking at time out. I can certainly understand that with all that is going on in her life at the moment. I am very glad that you are there for her. I can tell she is a very good girl but that she has a lot of hurts to heal. I respect her need for a time out, and I will look forward to hearing from her again when she is able. Please give her my love.

Terrie

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Re: Jackie

by Jackie (no login)

Jamie is a very good girl, indeed! She is also a very compassionate, and caring soul, of whom i am very proud to call my foster child, and treasured friend. She has enriched my life enormously.

I will most certainly give her your love!! (You have made a great impact on her, for she constantly speaks rather highly of yourself, and others here)

Sincerely, Jackie.

Posted on Jun 8, 2002, 11:32 PM
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For Jaime-Lee

by lisa (no login)

Miss F-Mom Jacie

Kan yu plees sai tu Jaimie-lee I miss her.And I wan Her be happi an she deserv lots of luv...an she is very good.....And I like her...an tu take gud car of her?

Jaime-lee....I am hapy yur my frind....and sad wen i not see yu...but i undrstand yu need to be awai...

byby my friend...Lisa


Posted on Jun 9, 2002, 1:06 AM
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Re: For Jaime-Lee

by Jackie (no login)

Lisa,

I certainly can, and will relay your message to Jamie-lee, it will surely lift her spirits. I too share your feelings of missing Jamie, for she is not able to be in my care at this time, so i am anxiously awaiting her return. (she is taking time out at a farm for young ones with PTSD, and such issues).

I must admit i was quite a sceptic in regards to internet relationships/friendships, however, reading Jamie' submissions here have changed my views. The past two evenings, i have learnt some things about Jamie, that have helped me enormously. It has accrued to me that, the internet has been some what of a life-line, and outlet for Jamie, and that i am very grateful for.

Kind Regards, Jackie.

Posted on Jun 9, 2002, 6:08 AM
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tu jakie

by lisa (no login)

hi f-mom of jaime-lee.

Max an lucie are lik yu for the putr....but they let me an chang minds litls about it cuz...i meet som ppl.
I dont talk a lot.an make friend eesi but jaimee-lee is a gud person an i like taking to her bout thingz and....films.an scool.an parents....hahaha....
I kno she lik you..and if she is a litl lik me....she no tell you....cuz.....she skar of pain.....
why she go to farm? what is STPD?......you gona tak her bak? she b bak on putr.?
i miss her lots....but wan her be ok. an happy to.....an...wan to know if sh b bak...ok.,...miss her lots....
thank yu

lisa

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Re: tu jakie

by JBrannon@bigpond.com (no login)

Hello Lisa,

"PTSD", is the shortened term, for "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder", which effects people who have suffered severe shock, and or trauma, such as abuse.

I certainly will be taking Jamie back!! My home is her home, and will be for as long as Jamie likes. She will be back on the computer when she returns home.

Now that i have read all of Jamie' submissions, i won't be back to this web site. However, If you wish to know how Jamie is in the future you are most welcome to email me.

Sincerely, Jackie.

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Re: tu jakie

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Hello Lisa,

"PTSD", is the shortened term, for "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder", which effects people who have suffered severe shock, and or trauma, such as abuse.

I certainly will be taking Jamie back!! My home is her home, and will be for as long as Jamie likes. She will be back on the computer when she returns home.

Now that i have read all of Jamie' submissions, i won't be back to this web site. However, If you wish to know how Jamie is in the future you are most welcome to email me.

Sincerely, Jackie.

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FOR LISA...................................................................

by Jamie-lee (no login)

am happy yr my friend 2.....
an i dunno realy what elst to say but just hi an i hope yr doin ok an i thinkin about ya.....
bye from me...............

Posted on Jun 16, 2002, 8:23 AM
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FOR LISA............................................

by Jamie-lee (no login)

am happy yr my friend 2.................
an i dunno really what elst to say but just hi an i
hope yr doin ok an i thinkin about ya..........
bye from me.................

Posted on Jun 16, 2002, 8:27 AM
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FOR LISA 2 AGAIN.....

by Jamie-lee (no login)

i no i did post twice already an now am doin it again but i did forget to say i hope ya have agood day an with lots an lotsa sun shine.....
i no ya not havein a real good time an ya feelin pretty bad an i do just want ya 2 no i care about ya an im am thinkin of ya.........
later.......

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jaime-lee

by lisa (no login)

is it reely you jaimee-lee?
yur bak or visiting?
how yu doing? how the farm....
it dont matr if i do good ar not ....how you doing?
im glad yur my frind..... i like yu lots jaime-lee...

it keep raining here ...but yu no wat? wen i saw yur name i had lilt sunshine in my hart....

is it reely yu ? jaimee-lee?

lisa

Posted on Jun 17, 2002, 12:42 AM
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Yep it is..................................

by Jamie-lee (no login)

yeah lisa its really me . haha
to prove it to ya i no ya like horses an when u did tell me u did like em i told u im am scared of em...... i dunno if im back or visitin.... like i dunno if im am gunna stay here much longer nomore but it dont matter were iam or were i go i can always go on the net anyways so is kool........the net is everywhere so it just dont matter huh....i do just wanna tell ya that it really does matter if ya feelin good or not ok cause yr kool an u matter heaps so it does matter ok......well it maters to me anyways....... the farm sucked an there aint nothin to say about it an im still spose to be there but i didnt wanna stay,,,,those peeps really dont give a rats ass anyways so i dont think i should neither....an i say f### em all..... noone can tell me what to do nomore cause iwont take it,,,,im gunna do what i wanna from now on an i dont care what noone says cause i got rights 2 an this is my life an my life only.....am glad yr my friend 2 an that u got a lil sun shine in ya heart when ya saw my name... .... an hey it keeps on rainin here 2,, sux huh...
well gotta go hey...stay kool mate...
Later,
Jamie-lee.................

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Sad

by Mary (no login)

Well, I'm very sad today. But trying to keep my head up for my girls. I took all the kids (stepkids and mine) camping over the weekend because "beau" was working all weekend - which is pretty much what he does all the time I guess. We got home on Sunday and went out to eat. On the way home, I had told him that I met one of the neighbors and - <<sigh>> you know.. I don't even want to talk about it anymore. Anyway, to make a long story short, it ended up that this neighbor works in the same city as beau does and I was telling him that I thought that was neat. He blew a gasket and started in on me on how I know how he doesn't want anyone to know what he does for a living. (When this neighbor was actually the one who said it. She says, "So, your husbands a cop, right.") Not like she didn't know. She lives right across the street from us. So, he went on to tell me that I wasn't real bright and that I've done enough damage for one day and why can't I just keep my mouth shut.

I don't know. I'm fighting a losing battle. Everything we have is in his name and everything is on his terms. I tried to downplay it by telling them that he was merely a dare officer, but he didn't see it that way. Ends up she's a teacher in the same school district and now he seems to thinks she's going to be spreading rumors around her school. I told him he was paranoid. He says he isn't. So, what if this neighbor was a teacher at a school that he taught? Then what? She'd already know, wouldn't she?

Anyway, I called my sister and she came and picked up some of our stuff and we are now at my dad's house. Which is ok for now, but beau has called twice today and I won't talk to him. I have absolutely no interest in what he has to say at all. Nothing. I never want to go back there again. I love the man with all my heart, but I hate how he treats me as second best. I do things with all the kids. He does things with only his. So, whatever, I guess. I just have to muster up the courage to tell him I'll be back this weekend for the rest of my stuff. :0(

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Mary

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I am so proud of you for making the very difficult decision to do what you need to do to take care of yourself. You deserve so very much better than your beau was giving you. Is there anyone who can go to the house with you to get the rest of your stuff? I highly recommend it, as dumped controlling beaus tend to be less than pleasant. I'm here for you, Mary.

Peace,
Terrie

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Thank you

by Mary (no login)

Thank you, Terrie. It's hard to keep going, but when I get home at the end of the day with my girls' it makes everything so much better.

Yes, I have a couple of people (my sisters) going with me, so it should be good. He's also going to be at work, so that helps too.

Posted on Jun 4, 2002, 1:15 PM
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talk of med condition and a good surprise

by Hope (no login)

I've been at the rhuematologist twice now. she had important blood work sent to a lab in CA.
I've got: fibromyalgia, bursitis, TMJ, and something called Sjorgens syndrome.
I have to take steroids and a water pill and a newer pain pill (it ain't working yet)
Get this tho..well, Terrie, you'll understand
NO:
salt
sugar
caffeine
and...
I have to drink at least 2 quarts of water...WATER mind you, not diet coke (nor the caffeine free)
I have to go to bed and wake up at the same time and for half an hour after I wake up, I have to lie there with a heating blanket over me. This is Florida!!!

The feelings with all this is I'm broken. I'm 43 and not only mentally handicapped, but physically too.
I felt like how will I ever get better and unfortunately, the answer is I won't.

I'm begging everyone out there to see a specialist if you feel pain continuously...the faster they dx it, the more they can do.
Luckily, the girl I am beginning to date, has no problems with any of this.

Also, on a very good note!!!!!

I HAVE A KITTY NAMED ROSEBUD OR ROSEY
SHE'S 8 WEEKS OLD AND FALLS ASLEEP ON ME AND PURRS
BUT, SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO MEOW
I JUST ADORE HER

good things happen even in bad times
Hope


Posted on May 30, 2002, 10:45 AM
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Hi Hope

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Gosh, I am so sorry to hear about the update on your health diagnosis. Are you still diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue as well? I read just a tad about the Sjorgens syndrome, and apparently it is very drying...I am thinking that is the reason for all the water you have to drink, perhaps? And I'm so sorry about the schedule you have to keep with your waking and sleeping and such...what a pain, huh? I do hope you feel better soon. I'm so glad the girl you are seeing is understanding, and also that you have a new kitten to love you and keep you company.

Love you lots,
Terrie



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