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Terrie

by Terry (no login)

Just popping in to say hello and send you much love.

Terry

Posted on Oct 1, 2003, 6:54 AM
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Terry!!!

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Hi sweetie! And sending much love back your way!

Big smiles,
Terrie

Posted on Oct 1, 2003, 7:58 PM
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terry

by sandra (no login)

how are yu doing?
been long time i see you
yu safe?

yu rememebr me?

sandra

Posted on Oct 1, 2003, 9:39 PM
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Sandra

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I'm the other Terrie, but I wanted to let you know that it's great to see you! Hope you are doing ok. I've missed you.

Love,
Terrie

Posted on Oct 2, 2003, 6:34 PM
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hi

by sandra (no login)

i know yur terrie....but just not the other....yur a friend to ok?
an i not doing good na no kno who to talk to
i know is silly stuff.....an pll prolly think im stupppid..but is bather my heart...
but ty for asking terrie

i know Terry is very busy an i undertsnd no having time for emails and stuff.....
is ok you know......
no sweat it terry

sandra

Posted on Oct 2, 2003, 9:34 PM
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sandra

by (Login HealingWymn)
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sweetie, you are more than welcome to talk to me about what is bothering you, and I won't think you're stupid. I don't know if I will be able to really help, but I can at least listen, and I do care, ok?

Love you,
Terrie

Posted on Oct 5, 2003, 10:02 PM
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About the forum

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Our spammer has returned once again, and in an effort to keep this board safe, I now have set it up so that all messages need to be approved before showing up. If all stays quiet for a while I will try the open forum again and see how it goes, but I will not tolerate this spammer and will put it back on moderated again if necessary in order to keep you all SAFE. Sorry for the inconvenience everyone....

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 29, 2003, 2:00 AM
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hi terrie

by davey (no login)

hi terrie, you remember me? i saw before my computer broke that people say that someone was pretendin to be you, but i never see what they talkin about. maybe people should have a computer like ours cus we never saw nothin bad!
are you still my friend?
davey

Posted on Sep 30, 2003, 4:34 PM
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davey!

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Hi there! Boy am I glad to see you! I missed you (and of course I'm still your friend!). I'm glad you never saw anything bad on the forum, cuz some of the things that were written were pretty bad. But me and my friend who helps watch the board made all the bad messages go away, so it is safe here now.

How are you doing? I hope you are doing fine. Thank you so much for writing to me!

Smiles,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 30, 2003, 10:57 PM
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Re: davey!

by davey (no login)

i am so so. i been waiting til i no i can talk to the docter man agin. my big person been having problems with him, so none of us want to talk to him til we no he's not gonna be mean. but some good news is we can stop working at the job that meant we never slept this friday! we are all exited to be able to sleep agin. everything was being messed up becuse of it- grades, frinds, our body.
are you having a good time?
by by
davey

Posted on Oct 1, 2003, 11:33 AM
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Hi davey!

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I'm so sorry that your big person is having some problems with the doctor. I hope that things are better soon. But I'm so glad that you don't have to work at the job that didn't let you sleep on Friday night! Yayayyayay! As for me, I am keeping vey busy, but I'm sure having fun doing it! heheheh

Smiles,
Terrie

Posted on Oct 1, 2003, 7:56 PM
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I need some advice please

by Nikki (from Nikki's people) (no login)

There's a person who I feel is taking advantage of me because I can't say no. It's nothing serious/ab*sive or anything, just someone I know who wants me to do all this work for her for free and she just keeps asking more and more of me and I really feel like I'm overwhelmed with everything she wants me to do but I don't know how to tell her that I can't do it all.

Posted on Sep 26, 2003, 3:44 AM
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Nikki

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Gosh, that's a tough situation, isn't it? I know that saying no ca be very difficult. Have you tried talking to her about how you feel about all this at all? Perhaps you could sit down with her and explain that while you are glad to have been able to help her, that you are currently feeling a bit overwhelmed and need to have some time to focus on some of your own stuff. If you are willing to still help at all, perhaps you can make an offer to help her out one day per week or something, or if that is still too much, suggest something that is easier for you, (even if it is to not do anymore of it at all for a while, and having her check back with you in 3 months to see how you feel then). Let me know how it goes and if you need to bounce any other ideas off me before (or after) you talk with her.

Terrie

Posted on Sep 26, 2003, 5:38 PM
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Terrie

by Nikki (again, sorry) (no login)

Thank you for writing to me Terrie.

I know this is stupid, but I'm way way way way way too scared to talk to her about it.

I'm sorry.
Nikki

Posted on Sep 27, 2003, 9:43 PM
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Nikki

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Nikki,
That is not stupid at all. A lot of people are scared to talk to people about stuff like that. What is it that you think you are scared would happen?

Terrie

Posted on Sep 28, 2003, 7:48 PM
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Terrie

by Nikki (no login)

Thank you so much for writing back to me Terrie, it means alot. I'm sorry I haven't replied sooner, just having a hard time right now.

I think my biggest fear about saying soemthing is that the person involved will get angry at me, and hate me, and possibly even yell at me. I totally freak out when people yell at me and it scares me so much that I'd rather do ANYTHING than have someone yell at me.

I feel quite silly about it really. I haven't had a day off from "working" for this person for 10 days now (I don't get paid) and I still have another 6 days to go. This maybe wouldn't be a problem with other people, but I haven't been able to work for many years due to my "issues" and so all of a sudden working full time (about 10 hours a day now) is draining me emotionally.

I'm really not sure what to do, but I don't think I'm coping at all now.

I'm sorry this is so long.

Love,
Nikki

PS: you do a wonderful job here on these forums and I hope you know how much you are appreciated. :)

Posted on Oct 4, 2003, 9:27 PM
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Nikki

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I can totally understand not wanting anyone to get mad at you and yell at you....I, too, very much dislike being yelled at. I guess, given that you are not comfortable talking to her about it, and are also not coping well with all the work, could you "call in sick"? After all, mental health issues are a valid reason to do so, so you would not be lying. Your mental and emotional health is suffering, you it is important for you to take care of yourself. Perhaps a break would give you some stregth to find a longer-term solution. Im here if you want to talk more, ok?

Terrie

Posted on Oct 5, 2003, 10:06 PM
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Thank you Terrie

by Nikki (no login)

Thank you so much Terrie. I'd never have thought to have a 'sick' day. I called in sick last night and have had today off. It's definitely what we needed. I was SO scared to call and say I was ill, but once I'd made the call I felt very relieved.

Thank you for your help with this problem. I really didn't know what to do!

Love,
Nikki

Posted on Oct 8, 2003, 1:41 AM
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Nikki! :)

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I'm so glad you were able to do that and that it helped. Yayyayayyayaya!!!!!

Love,
Terrie

Posted on Oct 9, 2003, 6:13 PM
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Glad I missed the bad posts

by Watcher (no login)

Really I think everyone here can just think about the history of each of the old posters and know that they wouldn't do it.

Posted on Sep 25, 2003, 6:27 AM
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Exactly

by (no login)

That is exactly right Watcher. Thank you!

Terrie

Posted on Sep 26, 2003, 7:29 AM
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yw

by Watcher (no login)

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Posted on Sep 27, 2003, 6:56 AM
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not me ok

by Marianne (no login)

i do see thet terrie you do say my name don ther for riting the yuky mesigs but rely honist an tru i didint rite thoes yuky mesigs and then i didint come heer for lots of lots of days becase i was scard of thet persen then i got to be come heer agan and i see thet it not scary no mor so i do be hopeng thet it ok for me to be comeng heer agan
from Marianne

Posted on Sep 23, 2003, 4:58 PM
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u no go way

by chelsea (from nikki's people) (no login)

pleez u sta hir marianne u bs nis fren an we no won u 2 go way pleez u no go u beri nis persn an we lik u beri mush luv chelsea an bethie

Posted on Sep 23, 2003, 6:57 PM
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Marianne

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Oh sweetie, I certainly don't think you made the yucky messages. All I was saying was that the person who did post them had the same computer address and you, me, and Hope. I thought that was very weird, even that you, me, and Hope had the same computer address, but I certainly don't think you made those yucky posts. You are more than welcome to keep on posting, and I would miss you if you didn't.

Your friend,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 26, 2003, 7:28 AM
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huh?

by Watcher (no login)

You mean to say that you don't live together? There is something seriously screwed up here, that just ain't possible.

Posted on Sep 27, 2003, 6:58 AM
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Watcher

by (Login HealingWymn)
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No, we don't live together. I'm in Tennessee, Hope is about 20 hours south east, and Marianne, is in way up north about a 2 day drive from me.

Terrie

Posted on Sep 28, 2003, 7:50 PM
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well thats just

by Watcher (no login)

so messed up! I can't even begin to understand how that happened. Are the numbers still the same even now after the bad posts stopped? Were they the same before?

I am really sorry this happened, can't figure out why anyone would want to waste their time doing it here, this is just a small forum.

Posted on Sep 28, 2003, 9:21 PM
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hope

by paule (no login)

how you doing?

we doing yukiiii but dont matter
miss yu
miss talking to real ppl...
food been problem
grrrrrr

paule

Posted on Sep 13, 2003, 8:17 PM
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About horrible posts

by (Login HealingWymn)
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It appears that someone is posing as me to make some awful posts, and I apologize for that. I checked the ISP and I'm very confused. The ISP is the same one that is used be me, Hope, and Marianne. Apparently ISPs are not very reliable, cuz none of the three of us using that one would write such awful stuff. In any case, thank you Katy for intervening about the posts to let others know it was not me, and for alerting me to check it out and delete the posts. If anyone wants to discuss their feelings about this, you are more than welcome to do so....I'm here to SUPPORT you all.....

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 8:17 AM
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hi

by paule (no login)

what is ISP?

wanted to add..never thought yu had written them
the post wer just plaine....not you

lov ya

paule

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 10:58 PM
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Hi Paule

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Thank you for your confidence in me. An ISP is the computers address (the computer itself, not e-mail), which is why it is confusing me cuz me and the others I named are all showing up as having the same ISP, but we are in 3 different parts of North America.....very confusing....

Anyway, it's great to see you.

Love you lots,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 13, 2003, 7:49 PM
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terrrie

by Paule and all (no login)

if yu all live in deferent area then should it show differnet isp?
computer do weird thing......happy notto work with them
terrie we lost yur number and adress .....can yu send it again? in email? sory guess wo many ppl go into my papers...
sorry again......

great to see yu had puter problem an making me go crasy

how yu doing?

paule i think

Posted on Sep 13, 2003, 8:16 PM
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Paule

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Yes, I would think the ISPs would all be different....who knows. Anyway, I will be glad to e-mail you my addy and such. I've missed you.

Love you,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 15, 2003, 1:27 PM
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ISP

by katy (no login)

over here, dunno if it works the same there, if you are on dial up for internet connection the last few digits change at various times when you post.On cable, your isp number stays exactly the same.So ours will always be the same number. If someone is using the same server as you at some time they can have the same isp number........confusing huh!

Posted on Sep 15, 2003, 5:04 AM
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regarding isp

by Watcher (no login)

part of the isp is a number that comes from your own computer and part is from your internet provider. So even though part of it may appear the same because of the same provider, the internal part of the isp that is given by a machine is never going to match anyone else's.

I did not see the offending posts, but the tricks are old ones played over and over as far as nasty posting goes. I imagine there are hackers who can simulate isp numbers, but I sure can't figure out how. You can post through an anonymizer (which reroutes your post to disguise the source) but I didn't think it was possible to fake it.

Best is to just ignore the posts.

Posted on Sep 25, 2003, 6:22 AM
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The ISP's were 100% idential for me and two other people plus the person who made the nasty posts. I know those two other people wouldn't do it, nor would I. But I thought it odd that I had the same ISP as two other people in two different parts of North America.

Thanks for you input,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 26, 2003, 7:25 AM
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not possible

by Watcher (no login)

I wonder if you had ever looked at them before all this happened? Had you compared them to a few months ago? Someone was goofing with it. I suggest that in the effort to make their own isp the same as your, it bled through to the others, but surely not to old posts too?

And how would they be able to see yours or change theirs? This is just plain hinky.

Posted on Sep 27, 2003, 7:01 AM
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Watcher

by (Login HealingWymn)
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The ISP number (205.188.209.46) is an AOL ISP. I looked back several months, and although I have personally had several other ISP's with my name during that time, that specific one was used by me 16 times from April until now. The same ISP has been used by Hope once (on 8/27/03) and Marianne 2 times (8/22/03 and 4/24/03). I know Hope is on AOL and I think Marianne is too, at least some of the time. So apparently AOL is not very good at giving differet computers their own ISP. My computer has also used 205.188.209.105 alot, as well as ISPs beginning with 64 instead of 205 (perhaps those were ones I posted from work??). Anyway, just wanted to give you an update.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 28, 2003, 8:18 PM
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Hmmmmmm........

by Watcher (no login)

Admittedly I know little about this. But it seems to me I remember someone saying that part of the ip numbers come from your computer and then some are used for location and some for the provider? Is that wrong?

This really has me scratching my head. I think my ip number starts with 64 or 65. I have cable so I guess it makes sense that one from you would be from your work.

I thought you meant that all the numbers were the same all the time. So your "visitor" was a person on AOL then I guess.

Posted on Sep 28, 2003, 9:25 PM
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Watcher

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I have temporarily enabled IP addys to show in the message. Feel free to check them out for the dates I listed above.

Terrie

Posted on Sep 29, 2003, 6:56 PM
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A BAD BOY

by (no login)

I WENT TO JAIL
I AM 12 YEARS OLD BOY

Posted on Sep 16, 2003, 2:23 AM
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scary

by Alyssa (from Nikki's people) (no login)

That must of beend reely scary. Im sorrry youu wentd to jail.

Posted on Sep 16, 2003, 10:53 PM
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Hi there

by (Login HealingWymn)
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are you a 12 year old boy inside a body with others? what happened that you ended up in jail?

Hope you are feeling better.

Terrie

Posted on Sep 20, 2003, 1:12 AM
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sori

by emlee (from nikki's people) (no login)

sori chelsea getd skard
hir rong
sori

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 7:43 AM
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emlee

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Hi emlee. It's ok that chelsea got scared. What that person wrote was a very scary thing. I have deleted it now, cuz I don't like what they said. And it definately was not me who wrote it. But I can sure understand chelsea being scared, and I think she is brave to talk about it.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 8:11 AM
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re:Terrie replies

by Katy (no login)

Terrie always writes with BLUE in her name, I don't think these are Terries replies,just some idiot stirring up trouble.

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 1:52 AM
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Re: re:Terrie replies

by chelsea (from nikki's people) (no login)

it bes skari

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 3:53 AM
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its ok

by Katy (no login)

{{{{{{{{{Chelsea}}}}}}}}}}
its ok ,The real safe Terrie will fix it all up again, cos shes smart and knows how to keep everything as safe as possible.

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 5:12 AM
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I have deleted scary posts nm,

by (Login HealingWymn)
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nm

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 8:22 AM
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hope ..need elp

by hope wiff lisa (no login)

mee nam is hope
i b 4
mee witd inpotan letr tu mee bests fwin
iz nam litl pooh. his big bz winnie.
winnie wuz bewee siki an go tu god.
litl had tu go ,an go tu zezus,
zezus is evrwere but no c him wite?
well i need de adwess of zezus so him giv lilt pooh da letr mee wit tu litl pooh ok?

kin sumone elp me fin zezus adwess pwees, wanf tu mail letr sunn ,
the evelop redy wit stamp on it....i put .48c hope is anuff...

fank yu fo yu elp

hope

Posted on Sep 11, 2003, 11:22 PM
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{{{{{Hope}}}}}

by Katy (no login)

I'm sorry winne and litle pooh had to go to God and Jesus, but you know what, I don't think Jesus has a street address like we do ,but I think maybe if you tied the letter to a balloon and let it fly away it will find its way to little pooh because Jesus is everywhere and I think he'll catch it and give it to little pooh.
Sometimes one of my littles,kay,writes letters and she likes to plant them under a pretty flower somewhere, because God looks there too,and she doesn't even have to put her address in it either because He already knows where to find her, but sometimes she just puts 'In my heart' when she thinks she needs an address.

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 5:35 AM
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Hope

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Katy had some wonderful ideas for getting your letter to Jesus. Another idea is that if you still want to put it in the mail, just address it to

Jesus
Heaven

If you do that, you might want to put a note on it "please do not return to sender" so that the post office will not just send it back to you instead of sending it where it needs to go.

I hope winnie gets your letter soon...I think it is very sweet of you to write it.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 8:21 AM
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wait

by alex (no login)

terrie, did you really write that?

Posted on Sep 11, 2003, 10:39 PM
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sorry, terrie

by alex (no login)

i should have known you wouldn't talk to me like that. could you remove all that below by me? i realize it was some jerk on the boards, just from looking at your other boards. sorry.

(slinking off)

alex

ps i haven't moved yet, not til next summer.

Posted on Sep 11, 2003, 10:43 PM
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Hi alex

by (Login HealingWymn)
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You are right, it was not me. I understand you reacting like that though, cuz what that person wrote was awful. I have deleted it now. Anyway, I'm sorry if my calls are triggering. I will write you an e-mail to explain why I am trying to make sure I have your right address, ok? I certainly didn't mean to trigger you with my calls. And I thought I had tried to wait til a little later in the day to call so that it would not be too early...if I failed at that, I'm sorry. Hope you are doing ok.

Love you,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 12, 2003, 8:14 AM
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terrie

by alex (no login)

please stop calling my house so early. i lost all email addresses when my computer crashed, so this is the only way i know to get in touch with you. i rarely talk on the phone with anyone, because i have a huge phone phobia.

Posted on Sep 11, 2003, 9:34 AM
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Hello

by (no login)

I am Lane, outside physical protector of thecru. I am checking these boards out for my inside people.Lanethecru is a large sra SURVIVOR system

Posted on Sep 10, 2003, 12:07 PM
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Lane

by Nikki (from Nikki's people) (no login)

Hello Lane. We're glad you're here.

Posted on Sep 10, 2003, 9:54 PM
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Hi Lane

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Welcome! I'm glad you have come here to check out the boards. I hope that you find the boards to be a safe place for thecru. I think that safety is extremely important, and am glad that thecru has you to help protect them.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 11, 2003, 7:33 AM
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I found a fantastic email list group for DID/MPd and ritual abuse

by (no login)

I founded a new email group for survivors of DID/MPD who have also been ritually abused and are in the more advanced stages of healing. If you'd like to join I am looking for members. Membership is private and there is a short screening process to ensure safety for all who join. Go to:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ritualabuseadvanced_DID_MPD
This will enable you to sign up. Hope to see some of you there.
Sharri

Posted on Sep 10, 2003, 12:22 AM
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terrie

by paule (no login)

yu change email? i send yu somehting while ago and yu not responce...not sure if is cuz yu change email or yu didnt get it????

paule

Posted on Sep 1, 2003, 8:19 PM
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Hi sweetie.

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I did not change my e-mail. I went back in my e-mail and found one from lisa about the message boards, which she then said was fixed on the boards; one from all of you about using incredimail (I love incredimail); and then one from you on July 4 which I answered that same day. Is there another one that you sent? I'm thinking about you sweetie, and missing you so much.

Lots of love,
Terrie

Posted on Sep 3, 2003, 7:39 AM
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another topic, another ?

by Hope (no login)

Does anyone else have problems figuring out who is out front? I always think it is me, but now, I'm not sure who "me" is.
Like I was reading a magazine yesterday and realized that a small one was reading very slowly and with a bit of hardship. I could hear them reading out loud like a little one who is learning how to read.
I talk with my room mate and I realize it isn't me talking. How long has someone else been talking to her? She can tell when it's not "me" and she pretends that it's just like talking to me. I'm glad she doesn't insist on talking with "me"...Hope.
But even writing this note, I can't help thinking I am not the one writing and thinking. It's a strange feeling. Could it be the bl*nd*ng that we have been trying to have happen?
I sure feel confused a lot lately and I have been afraid to ask, but then I thought maybe someone else might feel the same way.
Hope...I think

Posted on Aug 26, 2003, 7:51 AM
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hiya, hope

by savi (no login)

yes, yes, and yes. i'm writing this now but i don't know who it is. 3 of us run the front, but we only answer to one name. over time, it's been a slow blending, so we are all just kinda one. it's hard to be just me, and i guess i'm not. i'm alex and jess, too, right now. the kids are still separate, though. we don't plan on doing the big I, so that part's all cool. just us, together. it's not so bad, i think. just different.

Posted on Aug 26, 2003, 11:09 PM
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(((((Savi)))))

by (no login)

oh how I've missed talking with you!
How are you all doing?
How's the baby who probably isn't a baby anymore?

I'm really glad you experience the same thing. I get one little one who gets mixed up in front too and a couple of teens. hopey... who I used to be is around quite a bit up front. You know her very well and so is riley... I'm kind of a conglomeration of hopey..., riley...and Nat. Unfortunately, because of this, I never feel the right age of our body. We're with an older woman right now who is very patient with us and not DID. It's a big difference because we now feel the need to get ourselves together and I'm betting this is why we are not the same all the time. We are all trying to be kind of one person at a time and it gets mixed up a lot.

I'm glad you answered me...I feel a little better now. I don't see how we could ever completely do the big I either, but this bit of what's going on feels right, just a mess.

I left my email address up top for you to write me if you want. I know I wasn't a very good friend to you at times. I'd like another chance if it's ok. It is so good to see you here!

hugs if it's ok
Hope

Posted on Aug 27, 2003, 7:54 AM
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(((((((((((hope)))))))))))))

by Savi (no login)

my baby? yikes. he's almost 6 and about to start kindergarten. my partner is pregnant with another one, who's due at the end of February. life is funny, huh?

it's really hard to feel squished up, but i guess that's what's called 'natural I'? i have no idea. we aren't in t, so we don't have anyone to talk to about it, professionally. it's not really a big deal, though, for us. it's been going on for a couple of years, so we're used to it. the kids are resistant to anything, and like i said, we're ok with that. they can stay how they are.

bygones, hope. nobody's perfect all the time. it's just good to see you around.

Savi

Posted on Aug 28, 2003, 3:28 PM
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I wrote to you before I saw this

by Hope (no login)

I got my email first and now I have some of my answers. I wrote you back there, OK?
hugs back
Hope

Posted on Aug 29, 2003, 9:29 AM
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Hope

by paule (no login)

Hi hope
I thoink i understand,but not sure if is blending or not..
it does happen to me to feel am not alone..but is about all..
the noise and voises...that is very familliar tho...
sometime i just want them to shushhhhh if yu know what i mean....
guess it all depends on where we are at in healing huh?

good luck paule

Posted on Sep 1, 2003, 8:26 PM
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yeppers

by Hope (no login)

The voices in my head right now are driving me crazy. I know everyone is around. Sorry, but I am having a difficult time focusing these days. We are off the klonopin, but the after effects are really bothering us all. It's hard to be on the computer.
I'm glad I'm not the only one with these feelings and voices.
Hope

Posted on Sep 3, 2003, 10:56 AM
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I wrote a letter

by Hope (no login)

I wrote a letter to my room mate instead of talking to her and getting too emotional. I wrote about going back to work.
She was very kind and responded right away with she wants to think about what to say to me and she would get back to me. she also said that she appreciated the letter and she cares. that makes me feel good. I am feeling a lot of pressure to go back to work.

Also, I am almost off the klonopin and I have bad jitters but I am almost done and I feel good about that too.

not really sure who is here...

Posted on Aug 26, 2003, 7:45 AM
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Hope

by (Login HealingWymn)
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Good for you for initiating that communication, and I'm so glad she was so kind about responding to let you know she wants to think about what to say...that is so much better than just leaving you hanging....

Hope it all works out for you.

Love you,
Terrie

Posted on Aug 29, 2003, 8:43 AM
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This new pop up film ad

by Wtcher (no login)

Not only is it annoying, but it is totally inappropriate for this forum! I just spent a little time trying to find the button to turn it off while being subjected to horror scenes from a movie, quite graphic actually. I NEVER watch horror and do not enjoy it, makes me sick actually.

Posted on Aug 26, 2003, 6:24 AM
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I am sorry you feel badly

by Hope (no login)

I have pop-up blocker and I think most isp provide that service. can you get that to work for you? I haven't seen that pop-up, but then I don't get them.
It must feel awful to not get out of a frame that you don't want to see. I am sorry that happened to you. Maybe Terrie can help you better with this.
I hope you are doing better now.
Hope or so

Posted on Aug 26, 2003, 7:56 AM
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Oh Gosh...

by (Login HealingWymn)
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I don't guess I've seen that either. I know that when I come to the site there is often a site with an ad I have to bypass....is that the one? I have not stayed there long enough to see the ad....

In any case, I am so sorry about that. I know there is an option for me to have an ad-free site, but it costs money and I just really don't have it at the moment to put toward that. Perhaps in a few months things will be better and I can do that, cuz I sure hate for you or anyone to be triggered by something that you see at my message forums....

So sorry....
Terrie

Posted on Aug 29, 2003, 8:41 AM
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Hi again

by Watcher (no login)

I wonder why they dopn't let you select certain groupings of pop ups that are not right for certain forums?

Like sometimes the pop ups can have adult content in them (not specific to this site, just talking here...) What if those pop ups show up on a site for children?

I was once in a servivor chat and a person came in all po'd because he had been in a support site for sexual disfunction and an ad for femail viagra had popped up. We eventually made it into something funny to break the tension but I just gotta wonder why he ever needed to see that in the first place.

TV is just as guilty. I was sitting watching a football game (blech, but SO asked me to come) and here comes an ad for feminine products. Of course this replayed several times an hour during commercials and not only was it embarrassing, but what was the point? I mean who by far watches the most football anyway???!!!

I am sick and tired of being barraged by ad verts! Even my email is spammed!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whew. Little vent there...... carry on.

Posted on Sep 1, 2003, 2:51 PM
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Re: Hi again

by Anonymous (no login)

if you go here

http://download.com.com/3000-2144-10189471.html?tag=lst-0-9

you can download a free pop up blocker.

Posted on Sep 2, 2003, 1:52 PM
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by (Login HealingWymn)
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Just want to let you know that I totally agree. Thanks for writing!

Terrie

Posted on Sep 3, 2003, 7:41 AM
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(((((Terrie)))))...I wrote you down below

by Hope (no login)

nm

Posted on Aug 25, 2003, 12:50 PM
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mother

by shadow (from Nikki's people) (no login)

dearest mother

i cannot say it to your face

but

I do love you

so much

i'm sorry

Posted on Aug 25, 2003, 8:50 AM
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this is nice

by Hope (no login)

I am glad that you can say this.
I don't think you need to say it to her face. You said it to yourself.
I don't know that you have to say you are sorry. We do things that we do and sometimes, it's okay not to feel badly about it.
I hope this brings you some peace inside.
Hope

Posted on Aug 26, 2003, 8:01 AM
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