About 3 years ago I lost 20 pounds, felt great and was running a few miles 3-4 times a week, then life happened. October 18 2008 I left for Florida to help my Aunt pack up to come home to die - she lasted until April 2009 - the end was not pretty. My mom was hospitalized for the first time in September - there were 7 more long term hospitalizations and then surgery June 22 which was supposed to make everything better. June 18th I placed my grandfather in a nursing. August 12th my mom told me she had cirrhosis, a month later I had to call paramedics because she had fallen and I couldn't get her up. She was sent to the hospital where they also found stomache cancer. She came home to die October 18th 2010. Its been a LONG 2 years.
I found solace in food and ate back the 20lbs plus a few more. I am disgusted with myself...my clothes don't fit, I have no energy. I start back at the fitness center TODAY. I'm gonna turn on my ipod, work away these pounds and hopefully work away some pain in the process.