You'll have to pardon me if what I say tends to ramble, I'm not exactly sure how to say whatever, but hey, there's that Jai guy who can't go more then five seconds without cursing, so I should be okay. ^_^
I've been eharing voices all my life, but a couple months ago, they started getting stronger, more focused, like I had smacked them all into gear, right? ASll started with a bum behind my store. (well, not MY store, but the store I work at). I was getting some things from out back, when this guy walked up to me and asked if I could spare some raw meat, because he was really hungry, and didn't want trouble.
I thought about it, and just as I was about to say that I could lose me job, my eyes opened, and the voices in my head got stronger. "EVEN THE LIFELESS NEED SUSTENENCE" they said. I looked at him again, and his FLESH was hanging off him like bacon strips! I was freaked, but I tried staying calm, I measured the odds of me running without him chasing me down, measured against me just handing him the raw hamburger and hoping the zombie didn't kill me instead. (can zombies come out in the day? I thought he was some sort of revenant for a bit, but I realized it was day.)
Anyways, he thanked me very much, and walked away. I got reprimanded by my boss for giving away product, but I said he needed it more then we needed the 3.57 it would've cost us in money. He let me go then, and I've been worried since. Did I do the right thing? The voices directed me here, I guess, they talk to me a lot, like daily almost, sometimes they're old voices, like what I had before the revenant came along, but they get stronger occasionally, and tell me stuff like "JUDGE FAIRLY, FOR THEY CANNOT HELP THEMSELVES" and other Zen-like stuff.
So, am I going insane(or further, rather.)? Am I supposed to save the world from soemthing, or have I just stumbled onto more then I really needed to know?
Yeah, prolly never even heard of this guy...good reason to, it's one of my old (well, young) Hunter characters.
17-year old high school student, just graduated in October of 2000, has had schziophrenia for the entirity of his life, and also happens to have a Patron level of 5. Meaning, of course, his schizo voices and the Heralds are mixing together. Judge, quite Liberal for one, belieing more in "morals" then "ethics" as everyone's situation is different.
I figure, since there is a mention of using this palce as hunter-net.org, I might as well try it.
Insanity is what we all WISH was happening to us. But no, its weirder than that. Trust me. Just, go about daily life, and you'll see what I mean. Soon walking, pale, livign dead bloodsuckers are gonna be buying cigarettes from your store, but the weird thing is, you've been seeling Marlboros to that same guy for the past 2 years, and you didnt even relize he was a walking corpse. Its gonna get weirder. You'll start driving yourself nuts with all the questions you could come up with. But my advice is, dont do any acid for now on.....it will make everything seem....well, just dont do it.
And get a gun....it, helps for security reasons...
-MADDROX
-Greg Maddrox, "Shoot it like that, and you'll only make it mad. Here, lemmie show you how its done..."
So, I'm not alone huh? Voices got to you too, kind of eerie, but whatever. I did something new during the Christmas week, some guy came into my store, and wanted some money. He had a gun, and a couple other guys were with him. I asked the voices to lemme see, and I looked at them, and they were all wrong!
Two guys had black veins showing through their skin, and this really mean drug addict look on their face, but the other guy...he was really pale-looking, and it was kinda weird, because he was Asian...anyone ever seen a pale Asian kid? it's weird. So, he's very casual, like he's done this a lot, and I looked closer, and the voices got stronger again.
"HE IS THE CANCER" they go. so I pushed him and his friends out the door, and held the doors shut and prayed in as many different lanaguages as I could remember. French, Japanese, Hebrew, English, I just wanted them away. He looked really pissed, and tried punching at me through the glass, but he couldn't get through, so the cops started coming, and they ran off.
...then I kinda collapsed. Like stone cold out for 17 hours straight. I haven't heard anything new, and my store has kept it out of the news, since it'd look bad for the company if we narrowly avoided a robbery, so I'm still kinda good. But did I make the right descision? I can't very well just shoot him, leats not in public...shouldn't even in private, but what can I do know? any suggestions?
Go about life if you dont want part in the bigger scheme of things. You aren't alone, because hundred, possibly thousands more are like you and me. they fight a global war against the undead, the fury-big dogs, walkin corpses, goblins, ghosts, and everything else that goes bump in the night. I fight that same war. And it is a hard war. I keep fidning that out for myself....
Do what you want to do. Go about life, seeing these things, and not doing a single danm thing about them...or you can fight alongside of us....I suggest that one. Chances of survival are higher in this world when traveling with packs....because, y'just never know when y'might get jumped in an alley someday to not wake your dead-ass up with all the blood drained outta your veins. So, y'might as well have a friend by your side whos packin some heat....
I was walking down a street, it was late at night and very cold, i just wanted to go home... i was alone... as i stared ahead of me i was overcome by anxiety, unaware i staggered on. then out of nowhere i voice boomed in my head; "UNCERTENTY LIES WITH THE GRAVE" thinkin it to be my anxiety i continued when out of nowhere i see a shape move into the middle of the road, in a black cloak they stand staring at me... like there was nothing i could do. His eyes... seemed strange, like they didnt belong, they were very clouded, but he continued to stare.. he quickly moved towards me.. i was parylized, then out of nowhere i lunged at him, like a natural defense. He fell to the ground and was gone... what is going on?