"Blind"

Childhood Experience

As newly-borns we are utterly dependent on our instinct, information passed to us from our genes, to understand what is going on around us. We have only the primitive 'repression response' to protect us should we encounter a situation that our instinct cannot deal with.

When the repression response is activated, we do not fully experience an event, and the memory of it, along with any associated emotion is repressed. To keep this material repressed it is covered over with layers of anxiety.

When as children we first experience our parents conditioning us to make us into "civilised" human beings, the repression response is activated. This is because our instincts tell us our parents should love us unconditionally, not withhold affection in order to lead us away from our natural behaviour. The anxiety that covers over our first memory of not being loved is the fear that we cannot be loved, that we are innately unlovable. Yet, being loved is the very thing we desire most, over everything.(**)

Because this fear is not dealt with within our culture, it begins to cause us to alter our behaviour and thinking in order to avoid coming into contact with it. These alterations in thinking and behaviour are known as coping strategies. The most basic coping strategy is the use of a persona - a shield - behind which our true self can hide and carry out interactions with those around us. There are three important consequences of developing the persona.

Firstly, because we learn not to ask for what we truly want, but merely symbolic representations of our needs, we are never satisfied for long and find ourselves becoming almost addicted to obtaining material possessions, acquiring personal power, seeking sensual pleasures and craving adoration, i.e., worship - all simply substitutes for the unconditional love of our parents that was never ours. This is the root of the now universal problem of greed, for a person subconsciously driven to try and fill a hole with something that doesn't fill it up can never get enough.

Secondly, because the persona is held in place with personal pride and self respect, we subconsciously develop a very powerful aversion to being ridiculed within our peer group. This has the overall result of greatly limiting our ability to question the taught versions of subjects like history, religion, science and so on. To challenge them seriously, no matter what the evidence, is to potentially provoke ridicule, and thus cause pain.

Thirdly, because we must maintain self respect to keep our shield in place, we must also challenge very strongly anything which infers we could have been negatively affected by our conditioning. Because we have experienced conditioning, we find it very difficult to recognise the true effect it has had upon us. Because we cannot comprehend the tragedy that has occurred in our lives, we can neither heal nor prevent ourselves from conditioning our own children. Life becomes a feed back loop: because we have been conditioned, we cannot face the notion we are conditioned; because we cannot face the notion we are conditioned, we cannot heal ourselves of the effects of our conditioning; we thus we go on conditioning others.


So, the process of being conditioned invokes natural defence responses we have and has the effect of turning us into emotionally vulnerable creatures, dependent on material desires, addicted to maintaining self-esteem, and highly resistant to natural self-healing.

As parents we attempt to 'civilise' our children in this way because the founders of our culture(s) created the conditions to compel us to do so. Religious and social beliefs were and are constantly manipulated to ensure that all parents do it or face social exclusion. Most cultures condition their children, in the West and westernized countries however, it is done with the specific (hidden) intention of creating people who will undertake the enslavement of the planet on behalf of the elite.


Here then, in plain sight, lie the secrets, available for perusal


Ref.

We ourselves


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(**)Our need for unconditional love is as deep as our need for shelter, nourishment etc. for without them we do not survive. Our need for unconditional love is often even stronger than our need to stay alive. This is indicated by people who did not experience much affection in childhood will allow themselves to die for a political or religious cause, or to 'save' another. The need to believe we could be loved, if necessary after our death as promised by doctrine, religious or otherwise, outweighs the need to remain alive.