A star that won’t shine cannot be a star at all
I guess I can’t be one either
I am feeling dull after everything that passed
As I drift, mindless, through the ether
I have sifted through the ash with hopes of a flame
It has just been red, hot embers
They smoke like the sun filled with everyone’s eyes
That stare with hopes that I remember
However, they know I do, I will never forget
It is my cross to bear
No matter how gone I wish them to be
They will always remain right there
I tell them that it is not the Christian thing to do
You should always allow repentance
So now why must they haunt like that man on the cross
Who was just searching for acceptance
I cried, just like him, as they dug that sword in
Showing how weak I could be
Now I lie upon my bed with your thoughts in my head
Loveless, and never ending
Now the room starts to spin the floor falls under me
I never was meant for this
I guess it is all too late I can no longer escape
Those stars just ignored my wish
Some had to have heard that I was in such pain
Someone has to care for me
There are silhouettes all around my bed
Which one is the real thing
Now just tie my arms high above my head
Do what you will with this flesh
We have all been here but how quickly we forget
The past does not make a difference
What you have right here is the future of despair
I am your saving and righteous king
I will lead you toward the light of some dominatrix fight
Dressed in the leather armor so binding
Because it just rides up as we fail to discuss
All that leads us to this point
So we now sit in silence as we watch the people pass
Some holla back girl whom we anoint
She will be our words because ours are not there
They may be muddled but at least are heard
She will liken all our phrases into one exasperated quote
‘So I am gonna fight, gonna give it my all’
I guess that is all I should have myself say
So goodnight and sweet dreams
We are all God’s children, spoiled and rehearsed
It is always worse than it seems
I will be as you, just silent and removed
Like these are not your words
After so many years you are still hanging around here
Move on, just remove this curse
I have a woman who wants all that I can give
I gave so much to you
She waits patiently as I try to spring my heart free
It is stuck within your shoe
From all those times you spent dancing like a shrine
Expecting me to just cow-tow
But not anymore I will remain my own whore
No, I still do not know how
But it has to be better than all that there was
Because you just tore me apart
I gave it my all and now this woman has my love
But I cannot give her my heart
