Hi Everyone,
Sorry I did not post yesterday....My friend is not doing too well and I spent most of yesterday running around and then I had a massive melt down (I don't think the PIO injections are helping me either...I feel SUPER depressed this time around)....My girlfriend's OHSS has progressed and even though we were told that that usually happens after retrieval, I still feel so horrible and guilty....I hate that there is absolutely nothing I can do....I also feel bad c'os I can't even control my emotions now when I talk to her...I sob the second I hear her voice...I am trying so hard to 'get a grip' and be strong for her....But, I am not doing a very good job and that makes me feel guilty as well....
Yesterday morning we were told that 1 of the eggs died right after retrieval so out of 14, 9 fertilized (without ICSI).....We were all a little disappointed (I feel ungrateful for even saying that) But DH's Sample was phenomenal, my friend is only 27 and has two children, so I suppose we all just 'assumed' egg and sperm would 'hook up' instantly
....BUT, after seeing how much my friend is struggling I did sort of have an "Aha moment" and tried to be more optimistic....I prayed that the 9 would keep dividing and that if one more decided to join the party, well, that would be sooooo amazing.....For those of you that remember my cycle with Check in December...you may remember that my DH gave me a 'worry stone' and I kept it with me all of the time.....even throughout the whole time I was sleeping...I would wake up in the morning with dent marks in my hand from holding it so tightly...I rubbed it every time the clinc called me, and I held on to it during every appointment thereafter etc....I have started that craziness again
The clinic called me today and guess what? We now have 10 embryo's dividing
The clnic/RE gave us the option of 3DT or 5DT....They are fairly picky about what they will freeze and they only freeze on day 5....(statistic wise only 40% will make it to 5 days)....I asked them if they could pick out the 'not so stellar' embryo's on day 3 and transfer those (therefore letting the stronger ones go to day 5) and my thinking was that maybe the 'less than stellar' ones would likely be the one's to fizzle out, so why not give them a chance and put them in asap??? But the Lab Director told me it doesn't really work that way....There really isn't any way of knowing which embryo's will make it to day 5 (unless of course they are super bad and barely make it to day 3)...At this point, he said they are all fairly equal and that even near perfect embryo's fizzle out before day (for whatever reason).....But I just hate the thought of losing a few c'os they couldn't tolerate the environment in the lab etc....Anyway, not much I can do I suppose.....The lab likes the embryo's to be 2 or 4 cells on day 2, and we have couple of 4 cells, a 3 cell, and 1, 6 cell...They all have a bit of fragmentation which apparently is quite common when the donor has hyperstimmed....
Transfer is tomorrow at 11:45....I was hoping my friend could go with me, but I may be going alone (DH has a meeting and he cannot get out of it)...Thanks so much for thinking about me...Could I ask you all to continue sending your prayers, good thoughts and/or vibes to my friend? I will keep you all posted.....And, thank you for letting me continue to post here....I just feel like you guys are all my friends as I didn't really connect with anyone new over on the DE board....
Take Care!!!!
Love,
Elizabeth