oh honey...

i am so sorry to hear of this. i was the same as you last month. i thought for sure i was pg when 3 weeks after i had such good cm i did not get my period. i had small symptoms that could have been pg.

perhaps i was for a little while, i'll never know because i was too scared to poas until after 3 weeks and then....it was negative. i could not believe it. girl, i cried and cried for days. i am so effing sick of all this. so i know how you feel. this totally sucks and i wish i could wave my magic wand and we would both have success.

i went to my local doc and he didn't even examine me; just told me to take progesterone and see if i got a cycle.

i didn't do it and the other day i finally got my cbfm timed to start reading sticks and lo and behold it showed a high surge-but not peak. i wrote to my re and asked about administering a trigger shot to myself. he said, again, that i was officially in menopause but it wouldn't hurt me to trigger. yah, thanks for the reminder!!

anyway, so that's where i am right now. can't believe i actually registered a surge on that stupid monitor but both lines were darkened.

take heart my girl, something will work out. you only need one golden egg and about 200 swimmers. just keep trying. 3x a week should cover your bases.