I hope everyone on this board gets the baby of their dreams soon.
I am a graduate of this board, and am so grateful for all the help I got here for the four and a half years I visited.
I stumbled across this research study about women who ultimately choose to go on with their lives.
I am posting it only as a resource -- you don't have to read if you don't want to.
The researcher looked at the impact on the woman and her family of choosing to stay childless, and the difference between those who continue to struggle and suffer, and those who move on successfully.
Wishing all of you love and luck,