You are a lucky lady. What I've gone through this last year processing this is horrific. The depths of my depression are just ridiculous. But, I'm finally healing and moving on. My mother died in a car accident, and I have to admit, this has been harder in many ways to get through. That may sound awful, but it's true. But, I'm healing, and it's time to move on. DE and adoption just aren't right for my situation with DP and just isn't what I want at this point. I am thrilled for anyone who it works for, but just isn't right in my situation. Since I'm not married, if it changes down the road, then so be it, but now, childfree it is. Thanks for your support.