And if other people here find the encouragement with regard to DE helpful, then I can handle that. I'm just not ready to go there yet as far as considering DE, but I think I got upset earlier because I feel like I SHOULD be able to be further along in my journey than I am... so when I feel like someone else is implying that somehow I'm not doing enough and should just try harder to get my mind around doing DE or whatever, my gut reaction is like "but I CAN'T do that yet, doing THIS part is hard enough, and I need a break from being told I should be trying harder to get there when I'm just not there yet!", you know?
But that's not YOUR fault--that's what the warnings on posts are there for, and if I felt like I couldn't deal with mentions of DE in this thread today, I didn't have to choose to read your post. So I'm sorry I took my being upset at how traumatic this process is out on you, even in a small way. I hope you know that I value your support on this board, and I know that you want what we all want for each other here: to have our families in whatever way ends up being our personal path to motherhood, and to find peace and contentment with our lives whatever the future brings.