I am just now back from my appt to check for a heartbeat. I was pretty nervous going in as you can imagine. When my RE came in to see me I told him how scared I was so he did'nt wait around and started the u/s. First he saw the sac as did I but nothing was in it. Then he saw the yolk sac but no heartbeat. My blood drained from my body. He asked me how far along I was to which I said "I'm 6w4d. I should have a heartbeat by now." He agreed and kept looking. And then he said...
"Here's the heartbeat right here." I couldn't believe it. I asked him if he was sure again and again. He showed me the two chambers and said it was about 120bpm. He said it all looks good.

I am so relieved but I'm a realist. I have a long way to go to consider this a success but for now I am going to rejoice in the news. I do have a subchorionic hematoma like tI had with Ava so I was told to take it easy because they can cause problems but hopefully I will reabsorb it over time. The good news is that it is below the gestational sac so if I do pass it, the baby still has a good chance of staying behind. I know these are pretty common so I am not horribly worried about it. My biggest fear is going to be that the heartbeat will go away by the next u/s. I know I have a lot of hurdles to cross before I get to hold a baby in my arms again.
One day at a time right?