Sorry for the poor choice of words for the title of this post, but I really do feel miserable. I should be happy. I let the church lady make me feel like crap for having some animal medicine cards. I honestly don't believe that makes me an evil person.

Then I sat and listened while she told me my friend (the single dad) was on drugs and a bad father. His wife died about 5 months ago. He is a WONDERFUL father and person. He is not on drugs. He has put up with me thru this whole ordeal and I have not always been fun to be around.

Then I stupidly told him what she said and I've never seen him get mad, but he was mad. I should have kept my trap shut. Now I feel icky and horrible. He was not mad at me and he smiles constantly, even when he is mad I found out.

Why did I say anything?? Now I feel like crap. Why do I let others bring me down after I got such good news yesterday.

Then again, the church lady says stuff she shouldn't sometimes.

Aww. You know, life has lessons for us. And, I'm just like you, I can't be quiet either. I can't "help" myself, even. Sometimes it's good to remember the lessons life has for us. Toxic things that people say shouldn't be repeated to others. It's HARD, bc we feel poisoned by these people and their toxic words.

Let it go. You'll feel better.

Sending you peaceful thoughts, and letting go-ness.