So today is the anniversary of my freedom from a life filled with pain..
a life where I despaired and had no hope: to ever escape..
But one day a little girl: oh so innocent
put her hand in mine and whispered her secrets..
I knew I could never protect her from this horror I had and was living through...
I left the family and so called friends..who covered up the horror..
I had no identity,
I didn't exist..
I didn't have an education or anything
Except a friend who chose to help me out...
And I left this community (AMISH)
I realized that covering up abuse was wrong...
I reported the crimes
I went to court
The sentencings were a joke...
The Amish ostracized me, what a joke!
I thought the pain would never end..
I thought my life was over..
The family ! The so called (AMISH) friends! They all lied in my hour of despair......They denied me visitation to the tiny girl whom i love so much...
The road was long and hard... I tried my best...
I don't know what else to do..
I don't understand how they can be so judgemental and yet pretend to be CHRISTIANS!
How do they live with themselves supporting rapists and covering crimes?
Today the answer is ..I don't know..What I know is this:
Life is as good as it can be without the little girl...
I love my husband, my daughter and my brother and my inlaws all to no end...
I am at peace with everything..
It matters not what happened ..it only matters what I DO about it...
I am saddened on this day that Sally will never know her granddaughter, MY (AMISH) family will never know my actual family..I am also saddened that society .. as a rule looks at AMISH as "they can do no wrong"!
I have never been allowed to see the tiny little girl who is growing up so fast (AMISH)
Sincerely,
Mary Byler
www.marybyler.com
e-mail me at mary@marybyler.com
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