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pardon me in my drunken state;
Feeling the bitter pain of 1978.
Still waiting for justice 30 years ahead;
It's justice or die instead.
Posting to strangers coz kin doesn't respond
They continue life ignoring forgotten ones.
I'll give you all I have to investigate this Irish curse;
My well-being is totally immersed.
I dream to be comfortably numb;
They revived me as intelligently dumb.
I can't go on same as I was;
Reality hit me a little too late;
Alcohol gives me the numbing buzz;
Until I've met my final fate.
Sopranos inspired me to write;
I'm searching for some justice comfort tonight.
Maybe I'll regret this when I'm sober;
Right now I'm a blood comber.
Someone was supposed to care for me in life;
Instead I'm all alone;
Mama lass put away past strife;
I'm still clinging to life;
Maybe I need the connections of Enya or Bono.

no idea who the donnelys are
dont have tv & better by-far.
i did see Audrey-Rose;
need her therapy to make a big chapter close.
Hypnosis could help me regain lost memory
i was a normal lass & quite healthy.
accident re-creation is a simple physics solution;
without one put me in an institution.
nothing can cure this big heart break
band-aid methods are utterly fake.
atleast i can drunken myself
the pain less felt;
cheers to accident re-creation
for the sister who's dead;
apathy never lost a relation.
i dont understand how i'm all alone
life wasnt supposed to go in this direction
better stop or they'll think i'm suicidal prone
and make me their next medical dissection.
enuf for now as alcohol takes its toll;
comfortable and numb is good for the soul.
google brought me here searching for irish mob;
sorry if i'm misplaced - as i continue to sob.

the child is still here
she needs your help;
she screams in anguish
until there's nothing left.
she has no idea her life is headed into a wall
everyone else gets justice in court
what's wrong w/ her?
re-create this accident once and for all.
shattered glass
stained class
child of an immigrant lass.
that's the problem in a nutshell
welcome to a life in hell.
how many should burn at the stake
for causing her misery in this brimstone lake?
she has fake smiles until that day
only then will her pain be washed away.
those that have destroyed her
have long since forgotten
ah! good reason to always be on guard
Tomatoes are not rotten.
This is real life dumb fuck
you destroyed all of me
alcohol now takes away my misery.
what's wrong? cat got your tongue stuck?
You happy now?
Elated now?
Do my writings raise an eyebrow?
The devil knows what my dreams are
Devil motivated you but inspired me by far.
Pain, misery, anguish, and fear
Congratulations for my tears.
I cry out to the powers that be
Set me free.
Sopranos, Donnellys...whoever will help me.

So here I am
To sit and ramble on
About my life-sustaining injuries.
No one to hear or give a damn
The anguish carries on
Forgotten and seen as perjury.
Let's talk about right frontal lobe;
Let's talk about sudden abnormal sleep;
Let's talk about loose teeth;
There's more to discover with a deeper probe.
Damaged lobe = apparently psychotic;
Injured liver means irregular melatonin release;
Broken jaw bone means early bone loss topic;
We haven't even touched on hypothalymic urge to eat.
The skinny child got fat;
They gave a hushed laugh;
She carries trauma in her lap;
And all they do is sit back.
Let's talk about alcohol as a light-weight;
That puts us back to the lobe topic
I waited for justice in the narrow and straight;
Not my problem you forgot this relic.
Thirty years later you get justice for your own injury
Bound and gagged I’m still here.
There's a whole lot more justice unspoken.
The jury left hearts and spirits broken.
Josh has a song called "Vincent;"
It really should be me;
My injuries don’t seem apparent;
So I'm left here in agony.
Only God will give me release
God will let Satan take my life away;
The angels will rejoice;
An innocent returning the paradise way.
Silence speaks a thousand words;
You haven't seen me for years;
I restrain my ugliness,
If you only witnessed all my tears.
Something tells me you wouldn't give a rat's ass anyway;
Something tells me you don't care if I go or stay;
Then again that is your apathetic selfish way.
Think of a child’s flesh rotted away.
Worms of death have long since fed.
I once dreamt I pulled her up out of the grave;
Children shouldn't have those dreams in bed.
But then again whose rats ass does the jury give?
The truck driver’s business must live.

Feeling the cold harsh reality
People love children but dont react accordingly;
Why did you leave to me to die a long, cold death?
Why didn't you give me the same shot an old dog gets?
I could have skipped over all this misery;
No accident re-creation, no re-opening old case?
How would you like that bullet in the face?
Wouldn't you want to be put out of your misery?
Wouldn't you want your killer brought to their knees?
I'm too drunk to put this to closure
Pretty soon I'll be dozing.
Why can't I be like this 24 seven?
In my life that's pure heaven.
I remember being spit at in the face;
I remember my mother disgraced.
I remember all bad things;
I remember giving the truck driver a call as a teen.
I remember he eventually denied who he was.
I remember giving up on life just because.
God help me I can't remember the car being rammed
But I remember being chastised for the way I am.
I'm paying for all the crimes committed on me;
I'll get to the truck driver's house, commit murder accordingly.
I know the town he lived in;
He's probably retired by now;
The mob will remind him of me somehow.
Goodnight everyone and please pray for me.
I've given up on God as he seems to have done to me.
Bring the truck driver back to the witness stand
Tell him his actions took away all my life plans.

holy spirit that hovers the earth;
I curse your presence post rebirth.
I fully accept this greatest sin of all
and accept my blood release
from thy dagger's fall.
I bind upon you this evil spell;
My head be under thy sole
As I embrace Sheol.
Next time jhvh wont allow such misery
To descend upon babes so innocently.
Payback for prolonging suffering
Inside this inferno embering;
Don't allow me to live longer;
Lest my curse upon you grow stronger.