apology, explainations, announcements...

First on Richard's itenerary... apologize for being a pain in the ass during the comment. Yea, I was loud, obnoixious, pissy. I'm sorry.

Second... I would like to explain in reference to the combat -- I had ~no~ intention of there being ~any~ deaths resulting from the combats. I was gonna go in, start the combat, and after the first round back off -- using the flute if necessary -- and mindspeak'n to Anubis that "Hey, they are tough enough that us against the three of them isn't good odds... let's get out" and hit the Umbra. That's why... It really pissed me off when everything got out of hand. In that first round, I made one hit against the Giovanni... I wasn't even gonna follow that hit up -- I was gonna spread my 4 2agg attacks out so nobody took significant damage.
It wasn't supposed to be a big deal.
Especially when everything started getting out of hand, I really wanted to back out fast -- then actions were taken to assure that I couldn't... double the irritation. I got more pissy.
Then finally... The whole getting late, Richard's gonna be in trouble... that capped it off and it hit me, I snapped.
Again, I'm sorry I did it.
I did get in lots of trouble, by the way.

I'd just like to state that this is the first time I've really flipped out like this. Mike H, Marci, Jason, plenty of people probably haven't been around long enough to see it, but I've always been calm. Both in the big social messes and in problems during game. When people would storm off angrily I'd stay calm. When the game was jeopardized and people started yelling and calling names, I was calm. I want to state this because I don't want to be thought of as some irritable jackass. Because I'm not.

Now then... I've considered a bunch of shit, and I've come to a conclusion. I'm not playing anymore. To some of you I say "Sorry I couldn't stick around... we had some cool stuff going on" to some I say "I'm gonna miss playing around with you -- you're a cool person" to some I'm gonna say "Yea, the kid down the street is finally going home" and to the rest I'm gonna shrug since I know they don't care. The point isn't what I'm saying as I leave tho, or at least I hope it won't be, but it's that I am leaving.
I'm gonna miss playing, but I've thought things over, and my decision isn't spurt-of-the-moment or anything. So unless someone brings something I missed to my attention or otherwise gets me to stick around, I'm gone (and ~no~ to any cynical jackasses, I am not asking to be convinced to stay).

There might be some commenting or arguing or something... I'm betting people will just keep whatever they think to themselves and their friends, but if someone says something, I won't see it. I won't be checking the forums. If anyone wants to talk to me, about this or just cuz they wanna talk to me (shock! ^_^), my AIM screenname is "This be Richard" so you can just IM me and stuff.


Talk to you later -- if you see it as a worthwhile pursuit.
-Richard