After two m/c and many cxld cycles I am moving to DE. I am having a hard time dealing with my insecurities of DH children with his ex. I am jealous that he shares that and because of him not committing to me sooner it is now too late for me to have children with OE. I know it is my fault for staying and that is another reason why I am on unhappy with myself how can I be so dumb. I am working with a therapist but it is $$ and I really value the thoughts of other ladies who have had to deal with and understand how hard it is. I cant talk to my friends because they dont know how it feels because they all have kids. DH is not very sensitive to my feelings so it makes this even more difficult.