I know how it is I really do. You don't have to 'feel' anything when cycling as it makes no difference either way.
Take everything when and how you should and just get on with your normal life as much as possible. The cycle will then pass quickly and with hopefully less emotional fallout as you will be pg
I used to sit on the fence about what I expected out of a cycle and I always had a plan B - this helped me more than any chocolates, thinking of you and wishing you every success petal, TH