You name the awful psychological side effect, I have it.
I feel out of control in every way.
It's the meds--I go on them, I am nuts. I go off them and I am better.
I am on and off them so I really see the difference.
But I have noticed people here don't like to talk too much about side effects so I try not to harp on it.
It's seriously awful though. I am truly afraid to add lupron to the mix. I'm not sure what will happen. I feel psychically fragile in a way that's just overwhelming. I am irritable, phenomenally horribly depressed, can't sleep, anxious, bla bla bla.
Lupron made me feel like this 10 times more plus like I had the flu. Generalized aches all over my body.
I just tell myself it is only a very short time and I can survive it. And I know I can. It's just very hard.
I won't take antidepressants though. I just don't want to take anything.