Hi there, I am new to the boards as well. I remember the first time I was given the paperwork for a DE cycle. Looking back, I know I wanted to shut it and run. It is so overwhelming and the money listed next to each step is like a dagger. For me, I did the research for DE while giving it one last hail mary with my OE. The one time I talked to a pychologist, she mentioned that this was probably the best way for me to come to grips with it. It didn't make it any easier. Once you do the paper work and pick a donor, its exhilerating. I wish you best of luck. And everyone on this board has been super nice and supportive.