Well, for what it's worth, I think you're doing GREAT!March 16 2011 at 4:37 PM
|Veesha (Login Veesha)|
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You have forged ahead, time and time again. I think we all have probably made some decisions that we wish we could take back, I know I have. But I have had to cut myself some slack in all of this and realize that we make the best ones we can based solely on the information that we have at the time (sometimes this works, sometimes...not so much). When I mentioned not looking ahead, I hope you didn't think I was being critical. I was really talking to myself because I am so guilty of doing that. But I am trying to find good in the small things so that I can have something to celebrate, and not go berserk with all the waiting!
When our outcome is not what we had hoped, it is so easy to blame ourselves, but I always have to remind myself that IF is not a "respecter of persons". It doesn't matter if you're rich or poor, heavy or thin, tall or short, bad or good, it doesn't matter what your race is, it just happens, many times for no reason that anyone can understand, although doctors can sometimes trace the source of the IF and help us treat that so that we can try to find success. But it is not a judgement call. We just have to work with the cards that we are dealt, and you have worked with yours with strength and courage. It is important to vent and to allow yourself to feel whatever you feel and not blame yourself for that either. I know this board is a safety zone where we come to deal with the raw emotions of IF and IVF. We all know IF and IVF are challenging and to know that others are pulling or you, and thinking of you and wanting only the best for you is priceless. The encouragement that I've gotten from ladies who don't even know me, but GET me better than anyone because of their own experiences is invaluable.
So I am just hopeful for you and all of us on the boards.
Take care of yourself, and I'll be thinking of you and looking forward to updates!