In fact, the night before I was due to have my C section with the first DE baby I really started to panic, asking myself what the h@ll I had done, what if I didn't love her like I love my others, what if she looked exactly like the donor, what if, what if, what if. It was all forgotten the minute I gave birth and I would never wish her to be anybody else. I am so close to my first DE baby, I don't know if its because I'm now older and have more patience and a little more time but she is so loved - as are my other children, but she has been such a gift to our family and everyone just dotes over her, she is now 3 years old. I now have DE twins who to be honest have been really hard work but are now at nearly one just wonderful and are loved so much by all of us. I would never change DE. My older children do know I used DE - mainly I told because my son's girlfriend at 21 knew she could never have a genetic child of her own and my son asked me in confidence about what I thought. We sat down together and I explained that to me it wouldn't be a problem and it was not a reason to leave someone he loved. I then went on to ask him what he thought of (D) my first DE baby who was at the time only 6 to 8 months old. He went on to tell me that she was his sister and he loved her as such. I told him that (D) was DE and his reply was "that's lovely, she is my baby sister". DE is not a second thought in my family. We are one big happy family.