I'm having that rising feeling of panic.
It's my birthday today. I'm turning 45. I have this terror this will change everything.
I looked on a donor embryo site and I'll have to take a bunch of tests to get the embryos because I'm 45.
I don't know what this will do to my insurance coverage.
I'm just sort of freaking out--what do I do? How do I do it? Where do I go? When is insurance going to screw me? How am I going to get the $$ for the next round? Why did I go ahead and volunteer for that study? (Well, they told me I'd get 2 chances with 2 processes and I did not and they did not inform me so some was a breech of ethics on their part and not my fault), what if I save up enough $$ and did a real donor egg cycle and it didn't work? OMG that freaks me out...I could actually go on! There's religion and about 1,000 other factors involved in my turmoil.
I know a lot of you guys are in the same boat so I won't belabor things!
You are all very awesome. Thanks a million for all your support. I may need advice about next steps. I'm at a crossroads again.