I sometimes think my failures are telling me that I somehow just have to pray for the $$ to adopt.
Well, I am looking online and finding that adoption is going to be much more difficult than I thought. There are age restrictions. I did have depression in the past and that rules you out for some countries!
It sucks. I don't have depression or any problems now.
It was situational. That situation is completely over and I changed my life. I'm totally fine now. But I have insomnia and see a dr. for that.
I have a loooooong history of depression because the situation I was in lasted a long time. But it's been a long time since I've taken any medication for depression. I don't need it.
Sigh. The last time I took meds, it was related to this infertility thing.
Also, you have to have $80,000 in net worth and I don't.
And the waits are 2-4 years!!!!!!!
Seriously, I am up at 3 AM, I have to give a talk tomorrow night and I'm doing this...
The nurse at the Dr's office (my OB) is sweet but of course told me to adopt.
What the F is wrong with people? Do they think you just go online and pick out a baby.
I really like this woman alot! She meant well. It's just...DO PEOPLE NOT UNDERSTAND I WOULD HAVE ADOPTED BEFORE IF I COULD HAVE??????????????
Then there is this woman I know who hates all fertility treatments. She has 2 adopted children domestic and is outraged that people won't just adopt kids from DSS. I mean...COME ON.
She of course has no idea that I have done this...Or ever will. But it's brutal to hear her comments.
I just wish people would understand ADOPTION IS HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This whole thing maybe actually be easier
Screw it...I'm going to try to adopt from China. How I'm going to get the $$ I do NOT know. I'm just going to apply and pray that $25,000 falls in my lap somehow.
By the time I come up on the list I will have a longer history of no mental health treatment.
Of course, I'll save up like crazy.
Call me nuts. I just have to see if they'll count my furniture as going to my $80,000 net worth.
It's funny...my mother always told me that seeking help for depression was a bad idea because people would find out and there would be a stigma. And I guess she was right!
Oh man, nothing in this life is easy, is it?
I needed a miracle with the DE and now I need a miracle with adoption. I knew having a
child is a miracle but why does everything have to such a longshot???