God does my heart go out to you. I feel your pain. I really do.
I know we're supposed to be used to it but it hurts like hell every damn time.
I know u don't want to hear this, but do the beta. If the fresh doesn't work, you'll go frozen. The statistics are FINALLY on our side. Hang in there Newbie. It ain't over.
another ((hug)) and fingers crossed that it works out on fresh, but even if the answer is NO - onward and upward - LOTS AND LOTS of women have gotten pg on this board on frozen embies.