Its not that I'm ambivalent about OE, just scared.
I do so much appreciate the responses. Its helped validate my feelings. Also, I realize the difficulty at 43/44....hope I didn't sound like I thought it would be a piece of cake, 'cause I know it might not. It was just that my hurdle right now, is the fear of even getting pg w/OE (I know that sound weird).....maybe its because I've had this fear so long....probably since I was a teenager.