The cycle that just ended w/ chemical was a fresh cycle from my OE. We transferred 1blast and 2 almost blast on day 5. We decided to go to DE because the chances of finding a good egg at my age (42 this month) AMH high FSH (27) is slim. I just needed to move forward. The chemical was very difficult and I'm so sorry you had to go through it. I had a feeling something was wrong because the hpt's stayed very very faint. So honestly I was somewhat prepared mentally when my betas dropped. That helped. ((( big hugs))). The good side ( if there can possibly be one) is the next cycle can be done fast. ((more hugs)) AF will get here fast for you. Are you doing an FET? Fet's success rates are great so this will be it for you. Only positive thoughts!!!!