find yourself just as easily on the other side of the IF fence. like the previous 2 posters, I too had a history of m/c's, 5 to be exact, spanning over a decade. pulling into the hospital parking lot used to make me sick, let alone all the testing, results, and U/S's that went along with every disappointing ending to those 5 lost pgs. then, one day it worked, has worked now, and I will deliver twins very shortly. healthy twins, and a pg that has resulted in every test, and every u/s, and my own progress coming back with flying colors. I AM experiencing a healthy pg for the first time in my life after a decade of ttc and all the incredible heartbreak, doubt, fear, depression, and etc....that went along with it.
personally I embraced it. the beginning was shocking and hard to believe that an attempt was going in our favor, but once we got a couple of months into it, I let it go and stopped worrying. I was SO ready to, to just enjoy being pg. I made up my mind that it WAS possible that we could be successful and to date, we have been. push yourself, challenge yourself to let go of doubt and grief and experience something new, it's a wonderful thing to be happy...and I wish that for you and every other ttc-er.