We've all been there, and some of us are 'there'. It's just so hard. I'm bracing myself and what I really need is a good cry. I think I'll take a medium-hot shower and let out the worry and frustration. I know that I am lucky to have the 6 on ice in case this doesn't work, and I'm grateful for that.
BUT, I'm so exhausted - mentally, physically, financially. I need to keep all of the $$ I have and add to it, not toss more to these treatments. Clearly, I'm going to do a FET if this doesn't pan out. Another $3k ++ meds.
I will try to calm down and not be so negative. I just feel like I've been through the ringer. It is all consuming. I can't focus at work at ALL. I just need to know. Okay, I'm done for today. Going to shower and turn on my relaxation/ocean sounds tape. I've been playing this and some others a ton since the Saturday transfer trying to keep myself calm.
Good Evening All - and I'm very, very thankful for you!