I have had a similar experience to you, with OE and DE. I am so sorry. I was truly in shock and grieved for a long time. I am now starting a new cycle with a new RE and all the works -- which you applied...and I am scared it will happen again to us as well.
There are, however, women on this board, who have gone through more, and are now mothers!
Would you like to join us on the green board?
I am so sorry, I wish I could give you a big hug. It's not fair, and I wish it had not gone this way for you.