I won't lie to you - it really can be a dissatisfier. But it's also true that in the overall scheme of things, it's pretty minor. I would much rather have my boys, which I had via GS at age 48, than be the same age and not have them. The thing is, I am going to turn 50, or 55, or 60, or 65 anyway and I can age with two precious little boys to call me mommy, or not. I'd rather have them and be an older mother than not have them and conform to society's idea of what's a good age to be a mother. But yeah I know, if I had my druthers, I would have been successful in my thirties when I started trying. Things just didn't work out that way. I figure the positive in all this is that I will try harder to eat better and exercise and age more gracefully for their sakes.
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