I hate to see you so sad and overwhelmed this is a wonderful blessing though hard to see it now. Please see yourself with your babies and the joy they will bring, they will strive in a stress free environment so try to focus on the joy they will bring. I had twins and a toddler when I became pregnant and I would not change anything. I had a quadruple risk while carrying twins, I started the pregnancy with high blood pressure issues. All I did was try to stay healthy eat well and get plenty of rest. I was a bit nauseaus and only took zofran if I threw up. Other then that I stayed ahead of the nausea by eating small meals and never allowing myself to be hungry. Keep dry snacks like pretzels and crackers in your purse. You can do this, you are blessed 3x over they will put many smiles on your face.