CL. i dont know how exactly to place my words, i had travelled only to check back and see how ladies are fairing and iwas hit by your news ,itshard its hurting and for sure you canfeel lost and not to know what is best.
I know you are strong becuase you collected yourself gathered strength to tell us what is happening from this i know you have not completely lost hope. for now do what you feel makes you feel better.
Later pull your self again and let us know the direction and decision you have made , you can count on these ladies support and my support.
Your attitudehowever remains admirable dear no matter how this IF , this life breaks you. you are stronger dear. hold on hope